tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35304913196913593822024-03-12T19:23:56.625-07:00Expressing it AllTabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.comBlogger116125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-82352658888921013582011-03-04T08:54:00.000-08:002011-03-04T09:04:14.158-08:00MY 30TH BDAYSO <span style="font-family:courier new;">MY BDAY IS COMING UP.. IT'S MARCH BDAY MONTH!!! AND IT HAS BEEN GREAT SO FAR. DAY 1) HUNG OUT WITH HUBBY AND BF, DAY 2) WON TICKETS TO SEE TRACE ADKINS AT HOUSTON RODEO... FUN STUFF HAD A BLAST WITH MY BF. DAY 3) DINNER WITH HUBBY AND JUST KINDA CHILLED DAY 4) GETTING MY HAIR DONE TONIGHT AND GET MY KIDS yay! DAY 5) GOING TO HOUSTON RODEO AGAIN WITH MY AUNT AND FRIENDS AND HUBBY TO SEE BILLY CURRINGTON! CAN'T WAIT. SO SO FAR THIS HAS BEEN A GREAT WEEK AND NEXT WEEK IS SPRING BREAK.. WEEK OFF WITH THE KIDS, NEDERLAND HERITAGE FESTIVAL WITH THEM (THEY LOVE TO RIDE RIDES SO IT IS FUN), THEN ON THE 11TH I WILL BE AT THE RODEO AGAIN SEEING LADY ANTEBELLUM... THEN THE BIG DAY MARCH 12TH... I WILL BE 30. WHILE MY FRIENDS HAVE BEEN KINDA SAD BOUT BEING 30 IM EXCITED TO SEE WHERE MY LIFE WILL GO FOR THE NEXT 30 YEARS. </span><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;">i HAVE SOME GREAT FRIENDS AND CANT WAIT TO CELEBRATE WITH THEM. :)</span><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;">HOPING FOR SOME MAJOR CHANGES COMING SOON! :)</span><br /><span style="font-family:Courier New;"></span>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-49228438980914973302011-01-28T09:53:00.000-08:002011-01-28T09:55:13.056-08:00Bout to Change BlogsI'm thinking it's time to revamp and change up my blog...<br />I have been thinking about it for a bit.<br />Maybe I will get all my time and enthusiasm back now that things are changing.<br /><br />So I will keep you up to date and if I change it will probably be a WHOLE NEW BLOG!Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-24697259751978049702011-01-26T09:29:00.001-08:002011-01-26T09:31:02.614-08:002011Well HELLO my friends I have missed you all somuch. I know I have lost some followers too because its been so long. I am hoping to get to get back to this. I have a lot to catch up on.<br /><br />so hope everyone is having a wonderful 2011 so far.<br /><br />can't wait to catch up.<br /><br />if anyone has facebook im always on there... would love to be friends... look me up<br />Tabatha Taylor Bach<br /><br />;)<br /><br />lots of love,<br />TabTabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-42260447537071999832010-10-12T11:38:00.000-07:002010-10-12T11:43:58.604-07:00WOW...im sorry everyone... I havent been able to post in awhile. SO many things have gone on.<br /><br />Since last blogging.. I quit the awful job I had... and have been out of work. :( been looking really hard for a job.<br /><br />Have not had access to a computer like i did before my hard drive died.. and until I have money to fix it.. I just use my phone for facebook etc... :)<br /><br />GOOD NEWS THOUGH - I got a house...l I should not have to ever move again I hope. My kids are so very happy to live next door to my parents.. and on the street I grew up on.<br /><br />My brother is doing well.. thank you for the prayers!<br /><br />Need prayers for my husband though - I won't go into details but just pray for him and us! :)<br /><br />We made it to our anniversary OCT 3 - 1 yr .. I love him so much! He is an amazing man!<br /><br />I have lost some bloggy friends I guess since I havent blogged much, but I do still read some of my favorites.<br /><br />MISS YOU ALL!!!<br /><br />LOVE, TABATHATabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-28396981656499174432010-08-16T08:27:00.000-07:002010-08-16T08:33:08.340-07:00SLACKERHey well I know I've been REALLLY slacking on blogging lately. But with everything going on I barely can think. So here is some updates...<br /><br />My brother is doing better - still praying he will get his life together now and not try to harm himself anymore ever.<br /><br />We are moving yet again - (just moved in april) - but this should be the last time. I will finally get to own a house again! And hope that maybe one day my EX will get my name off that house he lives in. But finally I will not be renting and moving and moving and renting. Kids are super excited to move in next to Nan/Pawpaw and Aunt KK. I think it will be interesting living on the same street as my whole family again.<br /><br />Job well - I put in my two week notice today (though I don't have a permanent job to go to). Praying GOD will provide, and I'm going to sub again this year unless one of the leads I have come through.<br /><br />School starts next week and I can't believe my girls are going to 3rd grade andmy lil man is going to 1st. They were so excited when we found out their teachers and that they are all in the GT class! I was too cept that I know that means more homework and more projects lol.<br /><br />Life is crazy, but I know GOD has a plan!Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-40478329293314537592010-08-09T13:20:00.000-07:002010-08-09T13:21:34.981-07:00Thank youThank you for all the prayers and kind words about my brother! He is doing better, and I will update soon. Keep praying please for everyone in my family. This has been really tough on a lot of us.<br /><br />thank you again.Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-33178568356391773382010-08-04T11:19:00.000-07:002010-08-04T11:36:18.229-07:00Pour Your Heart Out - Suicide Attempt<a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"><img border="0" alt="" src="http://i904.photobucket.com/albums/ac246/shellthings/pouryourheartout.jpg" /></a><br /><br />Well it's that day of the week that I love over at <a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/">Shells</a><br /><br />This is a seriously emotional post for me.<br /><br />So I spoke about my baby brother last week, about me being worried about him, him getting his second dwi, etc.<br />Well I knew when I got told he went to jail a second time, I had a gut feeling something bad was coming. Never did I imagine what came.<br /><br />Saturday night, hubby and I were hanging out with friends we got home from swimming about 2am ish. I decided to check my facebook before going to bed, as I do I run across a status posted by my brother, that basically said thank you to those that have been beside me and FU to those that havent see you on the other side. As i progress to read the comments/conversation that took place, he actually posts that the deed was about to be done, then the convo on fb stops.<br /><br />So hear I am reading this, beginnign to panic, calling numbers and finding out that my brother has shot himself and is headed to the hospital. Never have I felt so sick, scared, pissed, angry, and every other emotion I can feel. I am trying to figure out who is going and what is going on.<br /><br />Now finally the decision is reached by me - I am driving to Houston right now, and that is the longest hour 1/2 or so drive I think ever. I sat in the car shaking, and mentally trying to prepare myself for what I was going to have to face. (having had no details of where he shot himself or anything).<br /><br />I get to the hospital and he had arove aboout 15 min before me in helicoptor and I had to wait to see him. When brought back in the ER I will never forget that first moment of looking at my baby brother. ( I will not go into details on here, but his face was not pretty, and blood was every where) this image will be in my head forever. Tears fell, body felt weak, I needed to sit, I needed to know he was going to live, something. Finally drs tell me it looks worse than it is... thank god. My brother opens his eyes and squeezed my hand, and i knew i had to hold it together. he was crying and couldnt breathe hardly. Had to keep him calm. Seeing my baby brother laying there like that has left me with unexpalinable feelings.<br /><br />Up in ICU, he was thanking me, telling me he was sorry, and that he loved me. He had to have his face reconstructed, and he will be ok. We have such a long road to go, I just hope he realized how much help he needs and will take it. He is still in Houston and is doing better. I am still scared to death for him.<br /><br />Although I may not have had much of a relationship with him, I love him so much and standing there not knowing if I was goign to lose him was awful for me.<br />I only hope one day he sees how much I love him, that everyone does, and we dont end up with an even worse phone call. I hope this wakes him up and he gets help.<br /><br />I know my life is ever changed by this now, and I know God had me there for a reason.<br />God saved him for a reason, I will pray he sees it!<br /><br />Thank you GOD for loving me, and giving me the strength to get through the last few days. and I pray my brother has the strength to get better and he doesn't continue down such a dark path.Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-90748055956946057172010-07-31T00:12:00.000-07:002010-07-31T01:00:20.281-07:00THe funniest thing everSo my daughters are at a slumber party tonight for one of our friends...<br />and while my husband, our friend, and I sit in the living room with our front door they wrapped our house and chalked our drive way... <br /><br />they are 8 years old.. with three adults help of course lol<br /><br />funniest thing ever :) pics coming soonTabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-31566103503133927812010-07-30T11:24:00.001-07:002010-07-30T11:29:04.490-07:00Fawk You Fridays - yay<a href="http://www.boobiesbabiesandablog.com/"><img src="http://boobiesbabiesandablog.webs.com/fufriday.JPG" alt="BWS tips button" width="125" height="125" /></a><br /><br />Oh wow been awhile since I participated in this <a href="http://www.boobiesbabiesandablog.com/2010/07/fawk-you-friday_30.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+BoobiesBabiesABlog+%28Boobies%2C+Babies%2C+%26+A+Blog%29">one</a>.. but boy do I need to today!!<br />I think it is great!<br /><br />So lets begin - <br /><br />Fawk You - first off to my X you can read my previous post to know what he's up to lately. It's at the top of the ARE YOU F N KIDDING ME LIST<br />Fawk You - To the rain that has been going all week.<br />Fawk You - to the losers that don't follow through with what they say they are going to do. <br />Fawk You - to the clock that always seems to tick tock so slowy after lunch time on this day when I am ssoooooo ready to get off and start my weekend!<br /><br /><br />Everyone have a great weekend :)Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-85130473731332531052010-07-30T09:38:00.000-07:002010-07-30T11:15:32.531-07:00JUST DONT GET IT!!!Ok so here is how my day played out yesterday....<br /><br />Drop off the kids at my parents so my lil sister and her bff can babysit. My dad then asks if my brother called me at 2am... i was like Hell no.. why would he? well he went to jail again for DWI.. this is strike two and he just got off probation last month. Can we say DUMB.. well then what makes it worse is when my parents said they would not bail him out this time... he preceeds to yell and start an argument with dad (while standing in the police station)... about how my parents never do anything for him and he never asks for anything.. can we say BS. First off they have helped him pay bills, dr bills, probation, insurance,etc... all while he is always still asking for more. So this seems to be the road my brother has taken, and I dont get it. I thought after he finally divorced the two times older than him wife, he would get his life straight, but instead he found someone even older thanher and is living with her. Now mind u he is 25 she is older than my daddy!! WTF?<br /><br />I am so worried bout him.. but can't help those that dont want to be helped, and I worry even more bout my daddy. He can't handle the stress anymore it effects his diabeties. But what do we do.. well nothing left to do and that is sad.<br /><br />SO if this wasnt on my mind and bad enough, I have to go to the post office to pick up mail for Danny. We got one of those lil cards that said he had a certified letter to pick up. We have no clue what it could be coming from the city it came from.<br />Well to our SURPRISE.. its from the municipal court... and<br />MY STUPID EX HUSBAND is filing ASSUALT charges against MY HUSBAND!<br /><br />now if danny had actually beat the hell out of him (like he would love to at times) these charges would be legit.. but they are such BS that is its ridicuoulus..<br />I mean who the hell does he think he is. Now if Danny had actually hit him then his charges would be legit. Danny kicked the fence that was between the two of them, after X ran his mouth.. (to much tell the whole story) but bottom line is THERE WAS NO ASSUALT and MY X is a Jerk! and now we have to go to court and deal with it all. UGH<br /><br />HOw can someone be SO HATEFUL!!!<br />And make comments like there are consequenses for his actions.. and that he should never have been treated that way .. blah blah blah...<br /><br />IT NEVER ENDS DOES IT?<br />Some people never quit be hateful and trying to always be in control! There way or no way.. ugh.<br /><br />Stupid.. just makes me want to scream... or as the song says <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA">I'll pray for you </a><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA"></a>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-62839014851771430072010-07-19T09:25:00.001-07:002010-07-19T09:29:27.905-07:00monday minute! been awhile<a href="http://www.thedailydoseofreality.com/"><img alt="Monday Minute" src="http://i829.photobucket.com/albums/zz215/thedailydoseofreality/MondayMinuteButtonSMALL.png" /></a><br /><br />Monday Minute with <a href="http://www.thedailydoseofreality.com/">IAN</a>.. have not particpated in awhile, but go a min in my rainy day here at work so I am this week :)<br /><br />What's your real name?<br />Tabatha<br /><br />Have you ever fabricated a story or anything on your blog? <br />NEVER! - my blog is all bout the reality I live in and feelings/thoughts I have<br /><br /><br />When in the car do you listen to the radio/CDs/iPod/etc?<br />it's either cds made at home.. or i love satallite radio.. so few comercials.. or if we have the ipod hooked up/charged then we get a wide range of songs... just depends on the day and where we are going<br /><br />Describe the 'sexiest' item of clothing that you own<br />hmmm i really don't know anymore.. use to be some lingere but now i think i have a reason to go shopping lol<br /><br />Would you be willing to breastfeed your friend's three year old child?<br />I don't think so... three years old and that kids should not still need the boob! Plus those teeth would freakin hurt!Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-55994101515352268302010-07-16T11:40:00.000-07:002010-07-16T11:44:26.240-07:00Friday Follow<a href="http://friday-follow.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i358.photobucket.com/albums/oo22/iamharriet/ff/button1.jpg" border="0" alt="friday-follow"></a><br /><br />Hey Hey everyone! well its FRIDAY.. yipee! <br />and I am participating in Friday- Follow! I have not been joining lately since I have been so busy :( but I like to jump in when I can. <br /><br />ALl of you new bloggers to my world.. I am Tabatha, wife to an amazing man, mom to my twin girls, my son, and a stepmom to my daughter and another son.. so we have 5 kids. LOADS OF FUN...never a dull moment. <br /><br />This blog is for me to write about Anything and Everything that I want to, sometimes I am telling happy stories, or praising something/someone, sometimes I am just plain bitching to the blog world about anything that is bugging me. <br /><br />I have come to love the blog world/friends for all their sweet and loving and helpful comments and advice. I love reading and making new friends with each of you!<br />SO I look forward to making more!<br /><br />Have a fantastic weekend :)Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-75655382668910192432010-07-14T14:25:00.000-07:002010-07-14T14:39:33.480-07:00Pour Your Heart Out - SCARED - HARD TO POST<a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"><img border="0" alt="" src="http://i904.photobucket.com/albums/ac246/shellthings/pouryourheartout.jpg" /></a><br /><br />Oh HOw I've missed PYHO with <a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/2010/07/pour-your-heart-out-bloggers-glass.html">SHELL</a><br /><br />THIS IS A REAL HARD ONE FOR ME!<br /><br />Ok so those of you that read my blog on a regular basis (or I'd like to think you do)).. would know a few things about me... 1) I'm a mom of three/five kids 2) I'm married for the 2nd time to an amazing man 3) I think I live on a rollercoaster at times 4) hate my x .. any ways you get the picture.. but see I know I've written a whole blog or two bout DANNY my husband, whom I met in Jan 09 and we married in Oct 09. So see we havent even been married a year... and I get so scared of losing him/us.<br /><br />I LOVE HIM so MUCH! and I know he knows I do... but see sometimes I think the whole us happening so fast causes us problems too.<br /><br />Right after we got married I got really depressed. It was one of those moments when I was SOOOO HAPPY in EVERY WAY with HIM and US... but was so depressed about my job/weight etc.. so I ended up pushing him away not even realizing it. And now that I know I did..(he reminds me).. I get scared of that getting in our way.<br />Though we still laugh, talk, play, and touch each other there is something different... but let me back up a lil again.. in April of this year we got into a HUGE fight.. I won't go into a lot of details, but he is so ANGRY (bout his ex and her moving off with his kids) he ended up takin that ANGER out on me... so in turn as I had comeout of being so depressed and was reaching back out to him he pushed me away.. in ways I never thought possible.<br /><br />So now here we are both still in love with each other (we've talked about it in great detail)... and both want this marriage more than anything... but we feel like we are starting over and it sucks. We are still newly married and it shouldnt be like this and we know it. IT HURTS both of us.. All I seem to do is cry when we talk about it... like I feel it is MY FAULT.... when I know it is both of our fault.<br /><br />I just get sooo scared.. because I never felt the way I do about him about anyone, not my exhusband not anyone I ever dated. I gave my whole heart to him, from the beginning and I can't imagine us not being together. (LET ME STATE THIS - WE ARE NOT EVEN THINKING BOUT NOT BEING TOGETHER) - i JUST get scared and needed to put this out on paper per say.<br /><br />I want more than anything to be with him for the rest of my life, and I know he loves me too, I feel it and see it. I just have to figure out how we get over this hump and back to the US that we both LOVE/NEED/WANT.<br /><br />anyways.. this was really hard for me to post, just because It's like puttin our crap out for the world to see, but I figured someone would say something back to me that helps me, encourages me, WAKES me up lol<br /><br />Thanks everyone that sits and reads this!<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3333ff;">I LOVE MY HUSBAND DANNY!!!</span>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-60335806280410345072010-07-13T09:51:00.000-07:002010-07-13T09:53:24.918-07:00FOllow me Back Tuesday<a href="http://boobiesbabiesblog.blogspot.com/"><img src="http://boobiesbabiesandablog.webs.com/fmbt200.png" alt="BWS tips button" width="125" height="125" /></a><br /><br />Havent participated in weeks.. but I love making new friends so come on and read my stuff and I'll be sure to come visit you too of course :)Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-1224472037447068412010-07-12T08:11:00.000-07:002010-07-12T08:54:38.255-07:00Oh Boy -Hello bloggy friends... oh how ive missed you. I was gone for a week for work, and bored out of my mind... sometimes I wonder what the hell is the point of some of the trainings we get sent to.. and maybe since I really am wishing I had another job.... it didnt help. Now mind you this job will or could be REALLY great.. but the PAY not so good.. barely making it. But I guess it will have to do for now... :(<br /><br />SO just to catch up on some things.... in short.... LIFE IS CRAZZY<br />I used my quiet time away to do some thinking.... and let me just say sometimes I think too much, over analyze situations, people etc... but sometimes that thinking also makes me realize how naive I am. Ever have that happen....<br /><br />I mean sometimes I think I take for granted things I shouldn't, people I shouldn't etc... but I guess we all do at times, but I also feel I am Takin for GRANTED by so many people, cuz I am always the GOOD FRIEND, no matter what they've done to me, I'm always there for them... sometimes that sucks.<br /><br />I guess after doing a lot of thinking, I've noticed some things that NEED to change, ever just stop and take a look and realize thingshave to change, well thats where I am at. TIme to put me first, not over my kids or husband, but over everyone else. My husband, and kids are the most important people in my life, and seems they are the ones that sometimes get the short end of the stick at times.. never on purpose but seems they do. NOT ANYMORE... everyone else will just have to wait...<br />I have to get myself up out of this funk that Ive been in for months and months, that seems to look better then it turns out not to be... so hard to remember GOD has aplan for me, not me a plan for me.<br /><br />When one door closes another opens up - right.... well we sure will see....<br /><br />Have so much more to write bout.. but got to wait a bit...<br /><br />OH HOW I HAVE MISSED YOU ALL!!Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-52416084083051745932010-07-01T11:38:00.000-07:002010-07-01T11:39:45.024-07:00DO YOU EVER...<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:180%;">have one of those days... where nothing seems to go right and you want to SCREAM... well that is my week.. not day lol... and I guess i've been a bad blogger here lately and I miss getting to read everyones stuff and write my own... :( so hopefully soon I'll be better... </span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;">but just so all my readers know.. i miss you and i miss your blogs! </span>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-78399232389575306392010-06-29T08:16:00.000-07:002010-06-29T08:37:24.551-07:00My Twins are 8 - JENNA/JACEE<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgeSA0y9VPaLiVKKszLwfNwx80yqYoPRRnpAz8WUdyJDWCWjSVnH1JnAe4bvDY43LGZV4DKJq8pg_RH-FQW5qKBKxTqbTUftzhFCB6KBkI6BRYSv8hz5w9fK30XBY-R30abxDsXoVzB5jY6/s1600/DSCN2881.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5488218981829445778" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgeSA0y9VPaLiVKKszLwfNwx80yqYoPRRnpAz8WUdyJDWCWjSVnH1JnAe4bvDY43LGZV4DKJq8pg_RH-FQW5qKBKxTqbTUftzhFCB6KBkI6BRYSv8hz5w9fK30XBY-R30abxDsXoVzB5jY6/s200/DSCN2881.JPG" /></a><br /><br /><div>Today is my twin girls birthday - I can not believe they are 8 years old today... not quite yet least not till 3:42 and 3:49 this afternoon... lol but still today it their day. The years have passed by so fast... I remember being in the hospital with them... being put on my head for two days, the going through labor, the losing so much blood and having a DNC done ...I had to receive blood and bags of iron before I was even allowed to see my precious girls :( but I can remember the moment I got to see them in the NICU... They were beautiful... precious... sweet and I remember how did two of yall fit inside me..lol.. but there they were my baby girls... </div></div><br /><div>and now they are so big and so involved in everything... and though they are twins and do so much alike, and are a like in so many ways they are so different....</div><br /><div>jenna much more the tom boy sporty but girly one</div><br /><div>while jacee is so girly it frightens me lol</div><br /><div>I love being there mom... and people always asked how'd I do it with twins.. its ALL i knew.. and I wouldnt change it for anything in the world!!! They are my world... and so is there lil brother!!</div><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5488220068809646066" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrgFCYXG7Tb1dOTMeQa5b57q1rOHE-LGY4GWj6PSi6N08NNpC3SU7dYQg4Jr-vvKFGFtLZqe9XlvLxtai7jtpBjdJz0WnYTxKAJjLEL1U3UXIYajJqhyV76LyYiwqEsm0WYy7wIB28OxbT/s200/DSCN2791.JPG" /> <div></div><br /><div>Happy Birthday to my baby girls... JENNA AND JACEE!!!<br /></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><br /></div><br /><div></div>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-7928101532910028432010-06-25T08:31:00.000-07:002010-06-25T10:21:30.635-07:00Good Enough - Or Not Good EnoughI know we all experience the Are we good enough or not feelings at some point or another...<br /><br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 209px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 133px; CURSOR: hand" border="0" alt="" src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/153/424345063_5e1651930e.jpg" />Here lately I am having that Not Good Enough Thought more than I should... I know it's just something I have to deal with.. and Push Past.. but Damn it gets hard at times.<br /><br />I know I am GOOD ENOUGH... but been replaying things in my head and it sucks.<br /><br />Have you had the I'm not a good enough mom, wife, sister, friend, employee thought?<br /><br />I sometimes get overwhelmed with the thoughts of I'm not good enough.. or not trying hard enough or whatever it may be.<br /><br />I want to do everything in my power to be the best mom I can... but sometimes feel I let my kids down since me and their dad got divorced and oculdnt make it work. and now they are stuck in this pattern of back and forth, and I blame myself.<br /><br />I want to be the best wife to Danny, I obviously screwed up somewhere along the way the first time... I don't want to this time. I want him to know I am here for him always no matter what.<br /><br />When it comes to the not good enough friend...well OVERALL.. I'm the BEST DAMN friend my friends have.. I'm always the one they can come cry to, laugh with etc.. no matter what they may or may not have done for me or too me or whatever.. but i guess when i start feeling like the left our friend i start the not good enough mind frame.. ughhh but anyways...<br /><br />Not good enough employee - well this one is probably what got me thinking so hard today... see for over a year now i've been lookng of a perm teaching job.. and after teaching for four years and subbing this last year you'd think I could get a job.. but beginning to think I must NOT BE GOOD ENOUGH - though every year my kids pass TAKS etc.. what am I doing wrong? What am I saying wrong in the interviews? I JUST DONT KNOW Anymore.. it makes me upset, tense, stressed, and just plain PISSED OFF that I can't seem to find a job. I know some of the problem is the last school I taught at (not the one i subbed at all this past year)... but the one I really was a contracted teacher at... the principal went on an ego power trip and seemed nothing I did was good enough :( and I ended up leaving that school.<br /><br />So anyways here I am still trying to find where I fit in... I have such a love for students and learning yet I am stuck here not able to find a job, while peopel are getting hired on that do not even want to be teaching.. ugh<br /><br />So GOOD ENOUGH or NOT GOOD ENOUGH... I know I am good enough in eveyone of the above places.. I just sometimes let things bother me soooo bad.. and then get upset over it all.<br />but hopefully I can just realize I AM GOOD ENOUGH!!! and NOONE can take that away from me!<br /><br />thanks for reading everyone.. i just needed to get this off of meTabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-21381814610987804152010-06-25T08:16:00.001-07:002010-06-25T08:18:28.364-07:00Friday Follow me -<a href="http://friday-follow.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i358.photobucket.com/albums/oo22/iamharriet/ff/button1.jpg" border="0" alt="friday-follow"></a><br /><br /><br />Its that time again... and its a great Blog hop... I love that they started it and now I have made so many more friends...<br /><br />If your new here... well I am Tabatha and this is my blog... where I talk, bitch, cry, rave, praise, etc... about just about anything that I need to. SOmetimes good things come out of my head, and sometimes memories and other things.<br /><br />I'd love to see ya hang around...<br /><br />Have a great weekend.Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-31959401480348520442010-06-24T08:35:00.000-07:002010-06-24T08:35:19.450-07:00Parents Photo FavesHey all my bloggy friends...... I decided to enter my Ethan into Parents.com photo contest.. not something I usually do.. but I'm askin for your help in voting for him. Yesterday alone he went from number #1749 to #859... I'd love to see that number go further down! We'd really appreciate it! Please click the link and vote for my lil cowboy :)<br /><br />Thanks you are all the best bloggy friends ever!<br /><br /><a href="http://photos.parents.com/category/vote/id/7/w/25/y/2010?page=859">Parents Photo Faves</a>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-45472091923766274282010-06-23T11:51:00.000-07:002010-06-23T12:26:38.554-07:00pour your heart out - DANNY edition :)<div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /> </div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"><img border="0" alt="" src="http://i904.photobucket.com/albums/ac246/shellthings/pouryourheartout.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br />Oh one of my favorite days to write... Pour Your Heart Out Wednesdays!!!<br /><br />There was a time not to long ago that I felt I would never find anyone that would want to be with me, or that would understand me, or love me the way I wanted to be loved. I had this image in my mind after getting divorced... who wants a 26 year old woman with not 1, not 2, but 3 kids... I figured in the end I would just settle for a guy that would be nice to my kids and not treat me like crap.<br /><br />Yes, I have always wanted that FAIRY TALE.. though I have never felt like the princess... cuz if you ask my kids I am the QUEEN!!! and I just wanted my KING!!!<br />(funny story there.... my kids said the king died when I got divorced from thier daddy.. and that the twins are the princesses and e-man is the prince - and Only they can say who can be king) (they did allow danny to be king finally).. anyways back to my story... So my X always said there is no such thing as a fairy tale, and I shoudl quit living in my fairy tale world....and we wonder why we arent still together lol... but anyways so after my divorce from X... I went crazy for a bit.. I was the lil bird let out of the cage and was FREE. Though I did everything to take care of my kids... I needed to find me again! TOok a long time... still at times I think I am still trying to find me. I know I made so many mistakes along the way but I am not sure I'd really go back and erase most of them. If i could talk to my old self I might would say just think things through a lil better... ya know.<br /><br />So not tooo long ago...January 3rd 2009 I met Danny... and boy did we hit off instantly! From that saturday night on we were together, or on the phone with each other. He was so easy to fall in love with... here is the first pic we took together .. with my cell phone lol... </div><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 227px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 177px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486048729973480162" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7l0xfykC3NxYk0x27ZDmaxL9hHU4UEKpju9pmza977sqdn8yOy3niiOjMoxZRKlnFQ_Nhz2EOjdjnUM6DPyxDrdYlub-VxmgyG8SngjvEwonkTyhqS73JCnbLNNVRNVCcgkdhrurlBJ9U/s320/td.jpg" /> I can honestly say Today that I have found my KING - he loves me, supports me, builds me up, lifts me up, and is MY BEST FRIEND!!! He loves my kids as if they are his own. He works so hard everyday to give us everything we need! The day he proposed to me.. I wasnt sure I could be happier :)<br /><p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 211px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 210px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486050534076304706" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIyvORtbABBDAYmvMAX__uMT7S-rYOTvS9WGN9SBqaGhZsHK4o0VxAwwjL5qKeA-t7sFQlIpWvwSwLNQTDhM7yFw3sEU-vfO8ZCM8KtoVRGtH2xSnYHEfozBFasZve9sgs5NN7J46ZYfM5/s320/eng.bmp" /> but let me just say I was even happier on the day we got married... and now even today he is what makes me smile.... I love knowing I get to go home to him, and he wants to be there... we have fun doing everything and anything.. whether it be watching a movie at home, or driving around town, we laugh and play and that means more than he will ever know! He is truly amazing and I feel so blessed to have him. I love him more than words will ever say!<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 150px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486051505466341858" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGpDquATl5OZVPX_H1CpKxIHI8cLhotFOHAC_R2XAecWFgFnc8__so4iu9HnUatGOI6G6jMuj7FyJOZtcncOlYk73RijP7AevVshXBl75ju76cPHIHfkTk-YnWdEy1TMRhZy99z-XgOsrL/s200/dt1.jpg" /> our engagement pic :)<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 164px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486051956471233410" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGs9sqlfFx6GYrZQhsI0ZMpE09j84Soi3ib73AzoNUo19ySbZ79f994MXKztJ1s_DVDEsjeiLcGTKV7UsZl9KQqEbTaZTsMpcdTuc7uSyC0eao1LOvq9w6MsR16wjMR-P76Aved-jwXM_I/s200/wed.jpg" /> then us on our wedding day - dancing to our song! </p><p> I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH!!!<br /><br /></p><p></p><br /><br /><p><br /></p>Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-50826349641219755002010-06-22T11:56:00.000-07:002010-06-22T12:54:51.214-07:00Overwhelmed....can i say wow... I am missing all of you bloggy friends... with this new job.. (THAT I DONT LIKE)... i am so busy! I barely get to get on here and read my fav blogs.. but I am trying.. dont forget about me.<br /><br />then on top of everything i am still trying to find a teaching job, my twins birthday party is this weekend.... was trying to find them a trampoline with an enclosure that was priced decently... dealing with friend drama, exs drama... etc... my poor husband is so torn up bout his kids and stuff it hurts so much to watch him hurt.. just want to help him. <br /><br />But I am PRAYING everyday that things start to calm down, and GOD puts me where I belong.. <br /><br />I just wanted to say I MISS MY FRIENDS on here.. and don't think I've ran away.. I am here and reading! just not getting as much time to post! <br /><br />Faithfully your bloggy friend<br />TabTabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-75639932988733017492010-06-22T11:43:00.000-07:002010-06-22T11:44:23.166-07:00Follow Me Back Tuesday<a href="http://boobiesbabiesblog.blogspot.com/"><img src="http://boobiesbabiesandablog.webs.com/fmbt200.png" alt="BWS tips button" width="125" height="125" /></a><br /><br /><br />welll with my new job i dont get to get on here as much.. but still try to everyday.. so I LOVE NEW FRIENDS!!<br /><br />So hit em up!Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-73369682049229227232010-06-18T07:00:00.000-07:002010-06-18T07:03:47.034-07:00Friday Follow<a href="http://friday-follow.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i358.photobucket.com/albums/oo22/iamharriet/ff/button1.jpg" border="0" alt="friday-follow"></a><br /><br />So hello everyone!!! It is that wonderful day of the week... FRIDAY!!!<br />This is my blog.. where I blog about everything from my kids... to my X... my hubby... work... etc.. and sometimes I just RANT away. But anyways I hope youll stick around! I enjoy reading all my fav blogs and making new blog friends.<br /><br />So talk to ya soon!!Tabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3530491319691359382.post-38476876958347902352010-06-16T12:36:00.000-07:002010-06-16T12:45:21.662-07:00Pour Your Heart Out - I dont UnderstandWell once againits my fav day of the week over at <a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/2010/06/pour-your-heart-out-14th-glass.html">Shells</a>... and today I just wanna say a few things... That I don't understand!!<br /><br /><a href="http://thingsicantsay-shell.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"><img border="0" alt="" src="http://i904.photobucket.com/albums/ac246/shellthings/pouryourheartout.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><br />I don't understand why so many schools say they need teachers, but I can't seem to get a phone call.<br />I don't understand why someone would call for a reference after you started the job already.<br />I don't understand why some people get so upset over something that they are willing to lose a friendship over something that really has NOTHING to do with them.<br />I don't understand why some people in particular can't grow up and take care of business.<br />I don't understand why some people are so Hung up on their selves they don't look around them and see who they are hurting.<br />I also don't understand why I always put my whole self into a friendship but at times don't feel like I am getting the same in return..when will I ever learn?<br />I don't understand why some people only call when they need something (family members)...<br /><br />So anyways... just have a lot on my mind.. Hope everyone is having a fantastic Wednesday... I know even with my stuff.. I am so ready for the weekend!!! :) woohooTabathahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02020471507902566770noreply@blogger.com5