Expressing it All

MY 30TH BDAY

2011-03-04T08:54:00.000-08:00

SO MY BDAY IS COMING UP.. IT'S MARCH BDAY MONTH!!! AND IT HAS BEEN GREAT SO FAR. DAY 1) HUNG OUT WITH HUBBY AND BF, DAY 2) WON TICKETS TO SEE TRACE ADKINS AT HOUSTON RODEO... FUN STUFF HAD A BLAST WITH MY BF. DAY 3) DINNER WITH HUBBY AND JUST KINDA CHILLED DAY 4) GETTING MY HAIR DONE TONIGHT AND GET MY KIDS yay! DAY 5) GOING TO HOUSTON RODEO AGAIN WITH MY AUNT AND FRIENDS AND HUBBY TO SEE BILLY CURRINGTON! CAN'T WAIT. SO SO FAR THIS HAS BEEN A GREAT WEEK AND NEXT WEEK IS SPRING BREAK.. WEEK OFF WITH THE KIDS, NEDERLAND HERITAGE FESTIVAL WITH THEM (THEY LOVE TO RIDE RIDES SO IT IS FUN), THEN ON THE 11TH I WILL BE AT THE RODEO AGAIN SEEING LADY ANTEBELLUM... THEN THE BIG DAY MARCH 12TH... I WILL BE 30. WHILE MY FRIENDS HAVE BEEN KINDA SAD BOUT BEING 30 IM EXCITED TO SEE WHERE MY LIFE WILL GO FOR THE NEXT 30 YEARS.

i HAVE SOME GREAT FRIENDS AND CANT WAIT TO CELEBRATE WITH THEM. :)

HOPING FOR SOME MAJOR CHANGES COMING SOON! :)

Bout to Change Blogs

2011-01-28T09:53:00.000-08:00

I'm thinking it's time to revamp and change up my blog...
I have been thinking about it for a bit.
Maybe I will get all my time and enthusiasm back now that things are changing.

So I will keep you up to date and if I change it will probably be a WHOLE NEW BLOG!

2011

2011-01-26T09:29:00.001-08:00

Well HELLO my friends I have missed you all somuch. I know I have lost some followers too because its been so long. I am hoping to get to get back to this. I have a lot to catch up on.

so hope everyone is having a wonderful 2011 so far.

can't wait to catch up.

if anyone has facebook im always on there... would love to be friends... look me up
Tabatha Taylor Bach

;)

lots of love,
Tab

WOW...

2010-10-12T11:38:00.000-07:00

im sorry everyone... I havent been able to post in awhile. SO many things have gone on.

Since last blogging.. I quit the awful job I had... and have been out of work. :( been looking really hard for a job.

Have not had access to a computer like i did before my hard drive died.. and until I have money to fix it.. I just use my phone for facebook etc... :)

GOOD NEWS THOUGH - I got a house...l I should not have to ever move again I hope. My kids are so very happy to live next door to my parents.. and on the street I grew up on.

My brother is doing well.. thank you for the prayers!

Need prayers for my husband though - I won't go into details but just pray for him and us! :)

We made it to our anniversary OCT 3 - 1 yr .. I love him so much! He is an amazing man!

I have lost some bloggy friends I guess since I havent blogged much, but I do still read some of my favorites.

MISS YOU ALL!!!

LOVE, TABATHA

SLACKER

2010-08-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

Hey well I know I've been REALLLY slacking on blogging lately. But with everything going on I barely can think. So here is some updates...

My brother is doing better - still praying he will get his life together now and not try to harm himself anymore ever.

We are moving yet again - (just moved in april) - but this should be the last time. I will finally get to own a house again! And hope that maybe one day my EX will get my name off that house he lives in. But finally I will not be renting and moving and moving and renting. Kids are super excited to move in next to Nan/Pawpaw and Aunt KK. I think it will be interesting living on the same street as my whole family again.

Job well - I put in my two week notice today (though I don't have a permanent job to go to). Praying GOD will provide, and I'm going to sub again this year unless one of the leads I have come through.

School starts next week and I can't believe my girls are going to 3rd grade andmy lil man is going to 1st. They were so excited when we found out their teachers and that they are all in the GT class! I was too cept that I know that means more homework and more projects lol.

Life is crazy, but I know GOD has a plan!

Thank you

2010-08-09T13:20:00.000-07:00

Thank you for all the prayers and kind words about my brother! He is doing better, and I will update soon. Keep praying please for everyone in my family. This has been really tough on a lot of us.

thank you again.

Pour Your Heart Out - Suicide Attempt

2010-08-04T11:19:00.000-07:00

Well it's that day of the week that I love over at Shells

This is a seriously emotional post for me.

So I spoke about my baby brother last week, about me being worried about him, him getting his second dwi, etc.
Well I knew when I got told he went to jail a second time, I had a gut feeling something bad was coming. Never did I imagine what came.

Saturday night, hubby and I were hanging out with friends we got home from swimming about 2am ish. I decided to check my facebook before going to bed, as I do I run across a status posted by my brother, that basically said thank you to those that have been beside me and FU to those that havent see you on the other side. As i progress to read the comments/conversation that took place, he actually posts that the deed was about to be done, then the convo on fb stops.

So hear I am reading this, beginnign to panic, calling numbers and finding out that my brother has shot himself and is headed to the hospital. Never have I felt so sick, scared, pissed, angry, and every other emotion I can feel. I am trying to figure out who is going and what is going on.

Now finally the decision is reached by me - I am driving to Houston right now, and that is the longest hour 1/2 or so drive I think ever. I sat in the car shaking, and mentally trying to prepare myself for what I was going to have to face. (having had no details of where he shot himself or anything).

I get to the hospital and he had arove aboout 15 min before me in helicoptor and I had to wait to see him. When brought back in the ER I will never forget that first moment of looking at my baby brother. ( I will not go into details on here, but his face was not pretty, and blood was every where) this image will be in my head forever. Tears fell, body felt weak, I needed to sit, I needed to know he was going to live, something. Finally drs tell me it looks worse than it is... thank god. My brother opens his eyes and squeezed my hand, and i knew i had to hold it together. he was crying and couldnt breathe hardly. Had to keep him calm. Seeing my baby brother laying there like that has left me with unexpalinable feelings.

Up in ICU, he was thanking me, telling me he was sorry, and that he loved me. He had to have his face reconstructed, and he will be ok. We have such a long road to go, I just hope he realized how much help he needs and will take it. He is still in Houston and is doing better. I am still scared to death for him.

Although I may not have had much of a relationship with him, I love him so much and standing there not knowing if I was goign to lose him was awful for me.
I only hope one day he sees how much I love him, that everyone does, and we dont end up with an even worse phone call. I hope this wakes him up and he gets help.

I know my life is ever changed by this now, and I know God had me there for a reason.
God saved him for a reason, I will pray he sees it!

Thank you GOD for loving me, and giving me the strength to get through the last few days. and I pray my brother has the strength to get better and he doesn't continue down such a dark path.

THe funniest thing ever

2010-07-31T00:12:00.000-07:00

So my daughters are at a slumber party tonight for one of our friends...
and while my husband, our friend, and I sit in the living room with our front door they wrapped our house and chalked our drive way...

they are 8 years old.. with three adults help of course lol

funniest thing ever :) pics coming soon

Fawk You Fridays - yay

2010-07-30T11:24:00.001-07:00

Oh wow been awhile since I participated in this one.. but boy do I need to today!!
I think it is great!

So lets begin -

Fawk You - first off to my X you can read my previous post to know what he's up to lately. It's at the top of the ARE YOU F N KIDDING ME LIST
Fawk You - To the rain that has been going all week.
Fawk You - to the losers that don't follow through with what they say they are going to do.
Fawk You - to the clock that always seems to tick tock so slowy after lunch time on this day when I am ssoooooo ready to get off and start my weekend!

Everyone have a great weekend :)

JUST DONT GET IT!!!

2010-07-30T09:38:00.000-07:00

Ok so here is how my day played out yesterday....

Drop off the kids at my parents so my lil sister and her bff can babysit. My dad then asks if my brother called me at 2am... i was like Hell no.. why would he? well he went to jail again for DWI.. this is strike two and he just got off probation last month. Can we say DUMB.. well then what makes it worse is when my parents said they would not bail him out this time... he preceeds to yell and start an argument with dad (while standing in the police station)... about how my parents never do anything for him and he never asks for anything.. can we say BS. First off they have helped him pay bills, dr bills, probation, insurance,etc... all while he is always still asking for more. So this seems to be the road my brother has taken, and I dont get it. I thought after he finally divorced the two times older than him wife, he would get his life straight, but instead he found someone even older thanher and is living with her. Now mind u he is 25 she is older than my daddy!! WTF?

I am so worried bout him.. but can't help those that dont want to be helped, and I worry even more bout my daddy. He can't handle the stress anymore it effects his diabeties. But what do we do.. well nothing left to do and that is sad.

SO if this wasnt on my mind and bad enough, I have to go to the post office to pick up mail for Danny. We got one of those lil cards that said he had a certified letter to pick up. We have no clue what it could be coming from the city it came from.
Well to our SURPRISE.. its from the municipal court... and
MY STUPID EX HUSBAND is filing ASSUALT charges against MY HUSBAND!

now if danny had actually beat the hell out of him (like he would love to at times) these charges would be legit.. but they are such BS that is its ridicuoulus..
I mean who the hell does he think he is. Now if Danny had actually hit him then his charges would be legit. Danny kicked the fence that was between the two of them, after X ran his mouth.. (to much tell the whole story) but bottom line is THERE WAS NO ASSUALT and MY X is a Jerk! and now we have to go to court and deal with it all. UGH

HOw can someone be SO HATEFUL!!!
And make comments like there are consequenses for his actions.. and that he should never have been treated that way .. blah blah blah...

IT NEVER ENDS DOES IT?
Some people never quit be hateful and trying to always be in control! There way or no way.. ugh.

Stupid.. just makes me want to scream... or as the song says I'll pray for you

monday minute! been awhile

2010-07-19T09:25:00.001-07:00

Monday Minute with IAN.. have not particpated in awhile, but go a min in my rainy day here at work so I am this week :)

What's your real name?
Tabatha

Have you ever fabricated a story or anything on your blog?
NEVER! - my blog is all bout the reality I live in and feelings/thoughts I have

When in the car do you listen to the radio/CDs/iPod/etc?
it's either cds made at home.. or i love satallite radio.. so few comercials.. or if we have the ipod hooked up/charged then we get a wide range of songs... just depends on the day and where we are going

Describe the 'sexiest' item of clothing that you own
hmmm i really don't know anymore.. use to be some lingere but now i think i have a reason to go shopping lol

Would you be willing to breastfeed your friend's three year old child?
I don't think so... three years old and that kids should not still need the boob! Plus those teeth would freakin hurt!

Friday Follow

2010-07-16T11:40:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey everyone! well its FRIDAY.. yipee!
and I am participating in Friday- Follow! I have not been joining lately since I have been so busy :( but I like to jump in when I can.

ALl of you new bloggers to my world.. I am Tabatha, wife to an amazing man, mom to my twin girls, my son, and a stepmom to my daughter and another son.. so we have 5 kids. LOADS OF FUN...never a dull moment.

This blog is for me to write about Anything and Everything that I want to, sometimes I am telling happy stories, or praising something/someone, sometimes I am just plain bitching to the blog world about anything that is bugging me.

I have come to love the blog world/friends for all their sweet and loving and helpful comments and advice. I love reading and making new friends with each of you!
SO I look forward to making more!

Have a fantastic weekend :)

Pour Your Heart Out - SCARED - HARD TO POST

2010-07-14T14:25:00.000-07:00

Oh HOw I've missed PYHO with SHELL

THIS IS A REAL HARD ONE FOR ME!

Ok so those of you that read my blog on a regular basis (or I'd like to think you do)).. would know a few things about me... 1) I'm a mom of three/five kids 2) I'm married for the 2nd time to an amazing man 3) I think I live on a rollercoaster at times 4) hate my x .. any ways you get the picture.. but see I know I've written a whole blog or two bout DANNY my husband, whom I met in Jan 09 and we married in Oct 09. So see we havent even been married a year... and I get so scared of losing him/us.

I LOVE HIM so MUCH! and I know he knows I do... but see sometimes I think the whole us happening so fast causes us problems too.

Right after we got married I got really depressed. It was one of those moments when I was SOOOO HAPPY in EVERY WAY with HIM and US... but was so depressed about my job/weight etc.. so I ended up pushing him away not even realizing it. And now that I know I did..(he reminds me).. I get scared of that getting in our way.
Though we still laugh, talk, play, and touch each other there is something different... but let me back up a lil again.. in April of this year we got into a HUGE fight.. I won't go into a lot of details, but he is so ANGRY (bout his ex and her moving off with his kids) he ended up takin that ANGER out on me... so in turn as I had comeout of being so depressed and was reaching back out to him he pushed me away.. in ways I never thought possible.

So now here we are both still in love with each other (we've talked about it in great detail)... and both want this marriage more than anything... but we feel like we are starting over and it sucks. We are still newly married and it shouldnt be like this and we know it. IT HURTS both of us.. All I seem to do is cry when we talk about it... like I feel it is MY FAULT.... when I know it is both of our fault.

I just get sooo scared.. because I never felt the way I do about him about anyone, not my exhusband not anyone I ever dated. I gave my whole heart to him, from the beginning and I can't imagine us not being together. (LET ME STATE THIS - WE ARE NOT EVEN THINKING BOUT NOT BEING TOGETHER) - i JUST get scared and needed to put this out on paper per say.

I want more than anything to be with him for the rest of my life, and I know he loves me too, I feel it and see it. I just have to figure out how we get over this hump and back to the US that we both LOVE/NEED/WANT.

anyways.. this was really hard for me to post, just because It's like puttin our crap out for the world to see, but I figured someone would say something back to me that helps me, encourages me, WAKES me up lol

Thanks everyone that sits and reads this!

I LOVE MY HUSBAND DANNY!!!

FOllow me Back Tuesday

2010-07-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

Havent participated in weeks.. but I love making new friends so come on and read my stuff and I'll be sure to come visit you too of course :)

Oh Boy -

2010-07-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggy friends... oh how ive missed you. I was gone for a week for work, and bored out of my mind... sometimes I wonder what the hell is the point of some of the trainings we get sent to.. and maybe since I really am wishing I had another job.... it didnt help. Now mind you this job will or could be REALLY great.. but the PAY not so good.. barely making it. But I guess it will have to do for now... :(

SO just to catch up on some things.... in short.... LIFE IS CRAZZY
I used my quiet time away to do some thinking.... and let me just say sometimes I think too much, over analyze situations, people etc... but sometimes that thinking also makes me realize how naive I am. Ever have that happen....

I mean sometimes I think I take for granted things I shouldn't, people I shouldn't etc... but I guess we all do at times, but I also feel I am Takin for GRANTED by so many people, cuz I am always the GOOD FRIEND, no matter what they've done to me, I'm always there for them... sometimes that sucks.

I guess after doing a lot of thinking, I've noticed some things that NEED to change, ever just stop and take a look and realize thingshave to change, well thats where I am at. TIme to put me first, not over my kids or husband, but over everyone else. My husband, and kids are the most important people in my life, and seems they are the ones that sometimes get the short end of the stick at times.. never on purpose but seems they do. NOT ANYMORE... everyone else will just have to wait...
I have to get myself up out of this funk that Ive been in for months and months, that seems to look better then it turns out not to be... so hard to remember GOD has aplan for me, not me a plan for me.

When one door closes another opens up - right.... well we sure will see....

Have so much more to write bout.. but got to wait a bit...

OH HOW I HAVE MISSED YOU ALL!!

DO YOU EVER...

2010-07-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

have one of those days... where nothing seems to go right and you want to SCREAM... well that is my week.. not day lol... and I guess i've been a bad blogger here lately and I miss getting to read everyones stuff and write my own... :( so hopefully soon I'll be better...
but just so all my readers know.. i miss you and i miss your blogs!

My Twins are 8 - JENNA/JACEE

2010-06-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

Today is my twin girls birthday - I can not believe they are 8 years old today... not quite yet least not till 3:42 and 3:49 this afternoon... lol but still today it their day. The years have passed by so fast... I remember being in the hospital with them... being put on my head for two days, the going through labor, the losing so much blood and having a DNC done ...I had to receive blood and bags of iron before I was even allowed to see my precious girls :( but I can remember the moment I got to see them in the NICU... They were beautiful... precious... sweet and I remember how did two of yall fit inside me..lol.. but there they were my baby girls...

and now they are so big and so involved in everything... and though they are twins and do so much alike, and are a like in so many ways they are so different....

jenna much more the tom boy sporty but girly one

while jacee is so girly it frightens me lol

I love being there mom... and people always asked how'd I do it with twins.. its ALL i knew.. and I wouldnt change it for anything in the world!!! They are my world... and so is there lil brother!!

Happy Birthday to my baby girls... JENNA AND JACEE!!!

Good Enough - Or Not Good Enough

2010-06-25T08:31:00.000-07:00

I know we all experience the Are we good enough or not feelings at some point or another...

Here lately I am having that Not Good Enough Thought more than I should... I know it's just something I have to deal with.. and Push Past.. but Damn it gets hard at times.

I know I am GOOD ENOUGH... but been replaying things in my head and it sucks.

Have you had the I'm not a good enough mom, wife, sister, friend, employee thought?

I sometimes get overwhelmed with the thoughts of I'm not good enough.. or not trying hard enough or whatever it may be.

I want to do everything in my power to be the best mom I can... but sometimes feel I let my kids down since me and their dad got divorced and oculdnt make it work. and now they are stuck in this pattern of back and forth, and I blame myself.

I want to be the best wife to Danny, I obviously screwed up somewhere along the way the first time... I don't want to this time. I want him to know I am here for him always no matter what.

When it comes to the not good enough friend...well OVERALL.. I'm the BEST DAMN friend my friends have.. I'm always the one they can come cry to, laugh with etc.. no matter what they may or may not have done for me or too me or whatever.. but i guess when i start feeling like the left our friend i start the not good enough mind frame.. ughhh but anyways...

Not good enough employee - well this one is probably what got me thinking so hard today... see for over a year now i've been lookng of a perm teaching job.. and after teaching for four years and subbing this last year you'd think I could get a job.. but beginning to think I must NOT BE GOOD ENOUGH - though every year my kids pass TAKS etc.. what am I doing wrong? What am I saying wrong in the interviews? I JUST DONT KNOW Anymore.. it makes me upset, tense, stressed, and just plain PISSED OFF that I can't seem to find a job. I know some of the problem is the last school I taught at (not the one i subbed at all this past year)... but the one I really was a contracted teacher at... the principal went on an ego power trip and seemed nothing I did was good enough :( and I ended up leaving that school.

So anyways here I am still trying to find where I fit in... I have such a love for students and learning yet I am stuck here not able to find a job, while peopel are getting hired on that do not even want to be teaching.. ugh

So GOOD ENOUGH or NOT GOOD ENOUGH... I know I am good enough in eveyone of the above places.. I just sometimes let things bother me soooo bad.. and then get upset over it all.
but hopefully I can just realize I AM GOOD ENOUGH!!! and NOONE can take that away from me!

thanks for reading everyone.. i just needed to get this off of me

Friday Follow me -

2010-06-25T08:16:00.001-07:00

Its that time again... and its a great Blog hop... I love that they started it and now I have made so many more friends...

If your new here... well I am Tabatha and this is my blog... where I talk, bitch, cry, rave, praise, etc... about just about anything that I need to. SOmetimes good things come out of my head, and sometimes memories and other things.

I'd love to see ya hang around...

Have a great weekend.

Parents Photo Faves

2010-06-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

Hey all my bloggy friends...... I decided to enter my Ethan into Parents.com photo contest.. not something I usually do.. but I'm askin for your help in voting for him. Yesterday alone he went from number #1749 to #859... I'd love to see that number go further down! We'd really appreciate it! Please click the link and vote for my lil cowboy :)

Thanks you are all the best bloggy friends ever!

Parents Photo Faves

pour your heart out - DANNY edition :)

2010-06-23T11:51:00.000-07:00

Oh one of my favorite days to write... Pour Your Heart Out Wednesdays!!!

There was a time not to long ago that I felt I would never find anyone that would want to be with me, or that would understand me, or love me the way I wanted to be loved. I had this image in my mind after getting divorced... who wants a 26 year old woman with not 1, not 2, but 3 kids... I figured in the end I would just settle for a guy that would be nice to my kids and not treat me like crap.

Yes, I have always wanted that FAIRY TALE.. though I have never felt like the princess... cuz if you ask my kids I am the QUEEN!!! and I just wanted my KING!!!
(funny story there.... my kids said the king died when I got divorced from thier daddy.. and that the twins are the princesses and e-man is the prince - and Only they can say who can be king) (they did allow danny to be king finally).. anyways back to my story... So my X always said there is no such thing as a fairy tale, and I shoudl quit living in my fairy tale world....and we wonder why we arent still together lol... but anyways so after my divorce from X... I went crazy for a bit.. I was the lil bird let out of the cage and was FREE. Though I did everything to take care of my kids... I needed to find me again! TOok a long time... still at times I think I am still trying to find me. I know I made so many mistakes along the way but I am not sure I'd really go back and erase most of them. If i could talk to my old self I might would say just think things through a lil better... ya know.

So not tooo long ago...January 3rd 2009 I met Danny... and boy did we hit off instantly! From that saturday night on we were together, or on the phone with each other. He was so easy to fall in love with... here is the first pic we took together .. with my cell phone lol...

I can honestly say Today that I have found my KING - he loves me, supports me, builds me up, lifts me up, and is MY BEST FRIEND!!! He loves my kids as if they are his own. He works so hard everyday to give us everything we need! The day he proposed to me.. I wasnt sure I could be happier :)

but let me just say I was even happier on the day we got married... and now even today he is what makes me smile.... I love knowing I get to go home to him, and he wants to be there... we have fun doing everything and anything.. whether it be watching a movie at home, or driving around town, we laugh and play and that means more than he will ever know! He is truly amazing and I feel so blessed to have him. I love him more than words will ever say! our engagement pic :) then us on our wedding day - dancing to our song!

I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH!!!

Overwhelmed....

2010-06-22T11:56:00.000-07:00

can i say wow... I am missing all of you bloggy friends... with this new job.. (THAT I DONT LIKE)... i am so busy! I barely get to get on here and read my fav blogs.. but I am trying.. dont forget about me.

then on top of everything i am still trying to find a teaching job, my twins birthday party is this weekend.... was trying to find them a trampoline with an enclosure that was priced decently... dealing with friend drama, exs drama... etc... my poor husband is so torn up bout his kids and stuff it hurts so much to watch him hurt.. just want to help him.

But I am PRAYING everyday that things start to calm down, and GOD puts me where I belong..

I just wanted to say I MISS MY FRIENDS on here.. and don't think I've ran away.. I am here and reading! just not getting as much time to post!

Faithfully your bloggy friend
Tab

Follow Me Back Tuesday

2010-06-22T11:43:00.000-07:00

welll with my new job i dont get to get on here as much.. but still try to everyday.. so I LOVE NEW FRIENDS!!

So hit em up!

Friday Follow

2010-06-18T07:00:00.000-07:00

So hello everyone!!! It is that wonderful day of the week... FRIDAY!!!
This is my blog.. where I blog about everything from my kids... to my X... my hubby... work... etc.. and sometimes I just RANT away. But anyways I hope youll stick around! I enjoy reading all my fav blogs and making new blog friends.

So talk to ya soon!!

Pour Your Heart Out - I dont Understand

2010-06-16T12:36:00.000-07:00

Well once againits my fav day of the week over at Shells... and today I just wanna say a few things... That I don't understand!!

I don't understand why so many schools say they need teachers, but I can't seem to get a phone call.
I don't understand why someone would call for a reference after you started the job already.
I don't understand why some people get so upset over something that they are willing to lose a friendship over something that really has NOTHING to do with them.
I don't understand why some people in particular can't grow up and take care of business.
I don't understand why some people are so Hung up on their selves they don't look around them and see who they are hurting.
I also don't understand why I always put my whole self into a friendship but at times don't feel like I am getting the same in return..when will I ever learn?
I don't understand why some people only call when they need something (family members)...

So anyways... just have a lot on my mind.. Hope everyone is having a fantastic Wednesday... I know even with my stuff.. I am so ready for the weekend!!! :) woohoo

Follow Me Back Tuesday -

2010-06-15T11:29:00.000-07:00

Well again I love making new friends!! so i Love this followme back!

I had to jump on and try to post this since here lately since I started my new job I dont have as much BLOG time :( but I do get on and I do follow back and comment on some of my FAV blogs..

so hope everyoen is having a fantastic TUESDAY :)

Friday Follow me -

2010-06-11T12:06:00.000-07:00

Love making new friends!!! The more the better!!! Thanks to this awesome bloghop.. we can all do just that!

Thanks to those that are hosting this!!! :)
You are all awesome!!!

Texas Country - Stoney Larue :) - Giddy!

2010-06-11T11:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Friday Everyone!!!!

I am just in a great mood today!!!

So last night hubby took me to see the guy named Stoney Larue... GO CHECK HIM OUT!!! he is a Texas Country singer, not as famous as people like Pat Green or Kevin Fowler.. but I <3>almost every concert we've been to in the year and half we've been together I've gotten a tshirt :) .. spoiled maybe a little bit) ... but see we've seen Stoney before I just didn't push for a shirt lol.. so not only did hubby buy me a shirt... and a coosie... I was right up front! Well Stoney throws out his guitar picks... and these three young skinny chicks had already gotten one.. I wanted one so much... so luckily I reached out my hand... and he gave me one... SO at this point I am sooo super happy over this lil piece of plastic.. like he is some Tim Mcgraw or George Strait... (who i love also)... but still its the little things sometimes lol. But then afterwards he reaches out and touches bout three of us women's hands. So my hubby being the goof he is... says "so i guess your super worked up now...you got a pick and your boyfriend touched you..lol." and of course I am just as happy as a lil kid that just got a present. BUT then it got even better... I went back to the back of the club and he was back there at his table with all his stuff for sale... and he signed my coosie and I got a HUG!!!

Silly I know.. but hey when your a fan your a fan ... RIGHT!!! and I am a FAN! and feel like a GOOB today about it lol... so anyways I just wanted to share.. and you should all go check him out!!! He has got some really great songs!!

I won!!!

2010-06-09T14:49:00.000-07:00

I won a Tshirt from Sarah at One Savvy Mom from Flirty Diva Tees they have some SUPER CUTE shirts!!! and let me just say I can Not wait to get it in!!! I never really win anything... and so now I am SUPER Excited!

Thanks Sarah! you made my afternoon :)

Pour Your Heart Out - Wish I could make it ok

2010-06-09T10:11:00.000-07:00

Well as per every week it is Pour Your Heart Out time over at Shells....
one of my favoirte memes to participate in.

So this week I want to talk about something that is affecting my husband, Danny.

See his ex has moved two and half almost three hours away from where we live as of last weekend, and he is so upset and distraught over it. Danny is a great daddy to his two kids, he drives the 45 min every week to see them either on wed or thur.. and then we get them every other weekend, and sometimes even more than that..like last weekend we took his daughter with us to state tourney for my girls.... He does everything he can for them, cept when she makes it so difficult.

This is the first week that he does not get to go see his kids this week, and then she is keeping them this weekend. He did not sleep at all last night, to the point of leaving bed and sleeping on the couch.

What makes it worse is since I did not have a perm teaching job this year, I am not off all summer and had to find a summer job (so we could pay bills) ...which means how can he get his kids for the summer like he is able to do. Daycare is so expensive in the summer time, and we dont have anyone really to watch them. Mine go to daycare but that is the one thing my ex is required to pay for. So I don't know what to do to help him through this .. HE knew it was coming, though I know that don't make it easier.

I just want to yell at his ex for takin his kids away... ( 2 1/2 hours is not far but it is at times when you have to get them on fri and return them on sunday)... she has been so selfish about it and everything else... never sends enough stuff for the kids etc...
aggravating..cant understand why some women are like that.

But anyways I just hate seeing him so torn up. I love him so much and I know he loves his kids and mine. Just wish I could help him.

Follow Me Back Tuesdays!!! :)

2010-06-08T06:32:00.000-07:00

Follow Me Back Tuesday is hosted by Survey Junkie, Little Yaya's, Review Retreat & Boobies,BabiesAndABlog..

make some new friends everyone :)

Welcome to my blog if your new... I blog about my life, and my thoughts and just about anything I want to EXPRESS myself about..

Hope to see ya around :)

In Case You missed ME..

2010-06-06T12:21:00.001-07:00

Hey.. well I know Ive been MIA since wednesday... but the end of the year school stuff kept me busy.. and then Friday we left for ALLSTARs .. my GIRLS DID GREAT>. pics to come soon.
BUt if you miss me this week its cuz I will be starting a NEW JOB... least a temp one hopefully...
but will try to get on so I can keep up! Just don't forget about me :) lol

Talk to everyone soon!! :)

Pour Your Heart OUT! - kinda long

2010-06-02T09:28:00.001-07:00

This is probably one of my favorite days of the week... and its all thanks to SHELL.

So anyways you have all already read stuff bout my wonderful EX (insert sarcasm here)! but he still gets my blood boiling... and ugh I have to vent again...

So here is the story.. He thinks he is the WORLDS BEST DADDY... yet my kids would rather stay with me and see him on weekends only instead of the week to week thing we do. But see here is the problem.. he can't stand to think someone else is doing more than him.. though DANNY does way more for my kids than X does. He is coachin my girls softball team, he gets them things they want/need, (as stupid as letting them pick out a $1 book in the scholastic book thing) their daddy NEVER lets them order out of.. I know that may not be important but still to the kids those lil things matter. that is just one example of MANY...

Well Friday ... we all had it out.. I asked X for some money for the girls' ALL STAR stuff.. and of course that turned into a fight. That turned into a bigger argument where he basically tells me how crappy a mom I am and to get off my butt and do something for my kids, and quit letting DANNY step in and take care of MY kids... I have been workin all year subbing instead of a perm job.. so not making the money I was last year.. things have been tough.. but I NEVER ask money from him. He preceeds to call my husband and idiot and many other things. I am always going out of my way (Because they are MY KIDS).. to pick them up or do whatever when he calls.. well as of friday I said NO MORE. am I wrong for that?

For over a year and half I have sent two suitcases of clothes every week to his house.. makin sure they always have what they need (he will even call me and ask for things if they are not in the bag) let me insert here also.. we only live bout 10-15 min apart... side by side cities. So I told him starting this next week I was not going to send ANYTHING he could go but stuff and make sure they had clothes to wear. NOw also let me say this.. I get NO child support or anything from him.. we have shared custody where they stay with me from FRI to FRI and then him till the next Fri. So everything is suppose to be 50/50 basically but it is NOT!
I will not say he does NOTHING for the kids but he doesnt go out of the way to help with them or do much extra.

SO during the fight over the phone between me, X & Danny... danny let him know he willno longer put up with him putting me down and making me feel like crap.. that he should respect me as his kids mom.. and Danny will not deal with him treating me like shit anymore now that I am married to him. Wasnt pretty at all. My X is one of those everything is either BLACK or WHITE.. NO inbetween areas.. his way usually or its not right.

SO anyways now that friday is almost here, I wonder am I wrong for wanting to send the kids with basically only one outfit a piece plus what they wear that day? Do i contnue to let him have his way and never do anything More?

SORRY this was so long everyone... if you made it this far.. thanks for reading.. Just needed to get some of that off my chest!

Yall are awesome friends!

Trendy Love to Pass around

2010-06-01T06:18:00.000-07:00

I just recieved another award.. from my dear friend Tricia at Lemons to Lemonade. So Thank you Honey!!!

Here is how this award works:

•To receive this award, promise to share this with 10 other BLOGS that you think are Trendy too.

•Post about your award in your blog.

•List your Top 10 Trendy Blogs.

•Share with them.

•Leave a link to the Trendy Blog Button.

•Tell them they need to give this award out to 10 as well.

So lets see who my 10 will be... I find so many blogs Trendy - and make sure I read so many of them daily :)

Cindi @ Little Yaya's

Shannon @ Faith - Hope - Love

Helene @ I'm Living Proof

SamiJoe @ Peek Thru Our Window

K @ pull up your potty seat

Heather @ View from the shoe

Ok I did six... got to save some of it for later :) when I have lil more time!

But I love reading your blogs along with so so many others.. that have gotten this award already from other bloggy friends!

Thanks again Tricia.. made my Tuesday morning start off great :)

Follow Me Back Tuesday - #4

2010-06-01T06:02:00.000-07:00

Love this follow... I have made so many friends and want to make more!!

I am loving to blog and reading everyone elses stories and rants and anything else they put on here! :)

So link up and make you some new friends :)

THE NEW FRIDAY FOLLOW

2010-05-28T06:18:00.000-07:00

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Welcome to the very first NEW Friday Follow hosted by Tami at Hearts Make Families, Harriet at Harriet and Friends, and Ian at The Daily Dose of Reality! We invite you to join us every Friday to get more blog followers and to find many interesting blogs that you like. This is all about sharing and having fun.A few housekeeping issues: We are looking for hosts for later dates. We have decided that three hosts is a good number for each blog hop. As usual, the top slots will be reserved for the hosts so they will get a lot more attention to their blogs. Another great benefit is that each host will have the opportunity to showcase their work the week after they host on Friday-Follow.com.We expect you to be on your honor and to have fun. These are only guidelines to make it more enjoyable for you. Here’s how YOU can join the Friday Follow celebration:
Link up your blog name and URL using the McLinky below. Only need to add on one blog to be seen on all the blog hops.
Grab the Friday Follow button and include on your Friday Follow blog post.
Follow Friday-Follow.com so you can see the current things going on. If you haven't check out the website yet, please do so.
Follow the Friday Follow hostesses listed in the first 3 slots.
Follow as many other blogs on the linky as you’d like.
Take a moment to comment on the blogs telling them you’re from Friday Follow. As always, we are trying to improve the Friday Follow so here are a couple of rules to make the experience even better for you:
Only one linky per blog. We do have a giveaway tab that you can include your giveaways on.
Please try to keep your post current so that people can see your showcased work.
Follow someone back if they follow you – this is common courtesy.
No xxrated blogs.
No spammers. This list is new each week. The links do not carry over. Please link up each week for new participants to find your blogs. The list is only open to add your blog links on Fridays. It will be visible all week to visit the blogs listed.
Three (3) Friday Followers of the Week!!
Each week we will randomly draw from three (3) blogs from the links for the next week’s Friday Follow, and each blog chosen will be placed in the highly coveted number #7, #8, and #9 position on the blog hop. The first blog chosen will also be given the option of doing an interview which will post on Friday-Follow.com on Thursday the next week. We love your participation and want to give back to you! You could be next!
Spread the word about Friday Follow by grabbing our button for your blog and come celebrate again every Friday. Feel free to also send out a tweet, blog, stumble or share the news in your own special way!
Guess what for joining the Friday Follow today – One lucky participant will win a T-Shirt!!! Courtesy of CafePress in honor of Father’s Day!!Did you know that you can find amazing personalized gifts you can customize – all at CafePress? Please check them out on Facebook and Twitter.
If you are interested in being a host or sponsoring a blog hop for Friday Follow, feel free to contact any one of your hostesses using admin@friday-follow.com.Thank you for joining us. Have fun!Happy Jumping!!

OMG - 100 followers

2010-05-27T11:48:00.000-07:00

Oh MY GOODNESS -

I hit 100 followers... I can not believe it!

When I started the blog I had like oh.. um 1 and that

was a friend that I love dearly and has been one of my BFs

since middle school.. now after some blog hopping

and making bloggy friends I hit 100!

my hubby thinks im a goob

cuz i kept saying OMG guess how many followers I have?..lol

All I hope is that everyone continues to read my blog...

I try to post things that are important to me

or sometimes just vent,

Thanks for listening and advising me

I cant wait to make it to the next blog milestone.

Now to just get my page better lol..

still learning bout that button and rolling roll type thing.

Im getting there.

Thanks again for all the support!

Can 't wait to keep reading everyones blogs.

You are all some Awesome people!

lots of love

ME!!!

WOOHOO GOT ME A BUTTON!!!

THANKS TO A FRIEND

I WILL LINK HER IN A LIL WHILE!!

SO PROUD -

2010-05-27T08:06:00.000-07:00

Well tonight I will be going to a High School Graduation. It is the first class I taught five years ago. I am so proud of the kids! One in particular is my "adopted child" I have talked a lil about before. So I am going to talk more about her... this is a pic she sent me when she recievedher cap/gown.. cant wait to see her tonight in it!

Her name is Veronica... she is a smart young lady!
She got pregnant her junior year and missed most of the year. But still graduated in the top of her class while being a New mommy. We all know how hard that is all by itself.

She is a sweet girl, and I love her as if she were my own. Teaching her while she was in 8th grade we became close, she was going through some things and would come tome to talk. Her mom and her were close but not close like they needed to be. There were times her mom tried to be more of her friend than her mom, and so therefore V got away with just bout anything she wanted. I was the one she listened to for some reason. I have become so close with her whole family and they all know she calls me mommy and they are ok with it. I love her and her baby girl Natalie.
Natalie calls me TATA and I love it!

So on top of her I am so proud of the whole graduating class of 2010. and can't wait to see them walk tonight! I've had so many of them message me asking if I was going to make it to graduation! and I am really excited to watch them! and of course get pictures (which i will post later).

Follow Me Back Tuesday - week 3

2010-05-25T08:46:00.000-07:00

It's that time again... trying to make new friends...

So go link up!

I love making new friends and finding awesome blogs to read!!

Where does the Time Go?

2010-05-24T12:29:00.000-07:00

So I have been a little emotional lately... and friday was no exceptioon...
See my babies all go to the same school... the girls are in second grade and my lil man is in Kindergarten, he will graduate friday. As i dropped them off I got sad, because since the first day of school they have all gotten out of the car and stayed together, but not here in the last week or so, and maybe I just finally really paid attention. My Ethan went one way, towards the gym, and the girls went their way towards the library or cafeteria. I realized then how much of a BIG boy he was, and boy did I get upset on my way to work. Seems to be a lot here lately, they all are getting so BIG! makes me sad, but also makes me happy!

Time just goes by so fast, I mean look its already almost June of 2010.

sometimes I'd just like a pause button for certain moments of time!

MOnday Minute - Ducky Style

2010-05-24T09:07:00.000-07:00

Participating in Ian's Monday Minute as usual ..

1. - Do you *snort*?
Yes when i get to laughing super super hard...

. 2 - Our friend, has a nickname and it's Daffy. What's your nickname?

Well here lately I have been called a phrase - THE BEST TEAM MOM EVER.. and i know to those reading it it may not make sense.. but see short explaination... being team mom for softball for one of my friends who is the coach.. well his wife and his other guy bestfriends wife have both been team mom for him.. but one night he was talkin to both his wife and guy friend and said TAB , it THE BEST TEAM MOM IVE EVER HAD.. can we say insert foot into mouth.. lol it may not seem funny but it is hilarious to all of us.. Ive also been called TAB. tabby cat, etc

. 3 - Do you know sign language?

i know a little... beside the bird :)

4. What's a sample convo from your hood?

after reading this.. i know i could fill pages up of convos from the hood.. after teaching in the hood for three years.. lol too many go through my head for this blog lol

5. Do you sleep with electronic devices - i.e. laptop, Blackberry, iPhone, etc?

my phone is beside my bed... it is my three alarm clocks lol

Wanna LIVE Vicariously Thru You!

2010-05-21T13:08:00.000-07:00

So the weekend is finally upon us... and mine will again consist of some softball for another weekend. Only one more weekend and two more weeks and then I'll get a softball break. :) Hopefully though My weekend will also consist of some me and hubby time, seems every time we turn around we are doing something with others, for others, or are at SOFTBALL! lol ready for next weekend... MEMORIAL DAY weekend =s FUN&RELAXATION! So just curious what does your weekend plans consist of? maybe i can live vicariously through you!!

Mission MOnkey

2010-05-21T11:51:00.000-07:00

Click on monkey to donate...please help!

Hello blog-world! I am participating in what's known around the world as Mission Monkey day! What is Mission Monkey you ask? Well, there's this blogger friend of ours known as Pixie Momma, aka Michelle. Michelle has a little girl, or Monkey as she's known by who was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma. To learn more about it, click here. Monkey is a sweet little 16 month old girl. She doesn't deserve this. Nobody deserves this.

But the good news is that Monkey only has Stage 1 (low risk). The bad news is the medical bills are mounting and the Physical Therapy (starts today) isn't covered by insurance. Michelle is using the donated money to offset medical bills. She will donate and unused portion to another family dealing with the same issue.

This is why the blogging universe is banning together like never before to rally around Michelle and Monkey to provide support. In addition to further entice you to lend your hand, and donate to the cause, we have over 50 items that have been donated. Many bloggers are hosting these fabulous giveaways and all you need to win one of these items is just one raffle ticket.

Donation pages:
Princess of Sarcasm - http://bit.ly/9nUmBp
The One and Only Oka - http://bit.ly/9KZSOG
SupahMommy - http://bit.ly/bSMrGw
Jenn B Says #1 - http://bit.ly/bYzHAH
Jenn B Says #2 - http://bit.ly/bej01D
Amber - http://bit.ly/cTGq29
Two Little Monkeys - http://bit.ly/cZKjzK
Mommy's Nest - http://bit.ly/9tLjoy
Chief's Hiding From the Kids - http://bit.ly/cfKIiO
Jenny - http://bit.ly/dftIS2
Jana - http://bit.ly/aUKVjM

You may donate any amount of money via PayPal as it's linked directly to Michelle's bank account. However, in order to be a part of the raffle, this is how that's going to go. If you donate the following, you get the subsequent number of entries:

$10 - 2 entries
$20 - 5 entries
$30 - 10 entries
$40 - 15 entries
$50 - 20 entries
$75 - 35 entries
$100 - 50 entries
$200 - 125 entries
The raffles for each item will start on or around July 1st.

Blog hop #2

2010-05-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the second edition of Blog Hop Friday, hosted by My New Life As Mom, Chubby Cheeks Thinks, Take A Mom's Word For It, Bree Bee's, This Adventure Our Life and Belly Charms! We invite you and your friends to link up every Friday and join us for a wonderful blog hopping adventure! We're all about making friends and having fun so come join us! Here's how you can join in on the fun;

Link up to your blog, using our inlinkz link list, below.

Follow the host/hostesses located in the first 6 slots.

Follow any other blogs that you feel appropriate! :)

Add the Blog Hop Friday button to your sidebar.

When following a new blog, please remember to leave a little personal comment love.

If you get a new follower, please feel free to reciprocate the love.

So go make a friends!

Fawk You #2 -

2010-05-21T06:38:00.000-07:00

Jana started this awesome friday meme... FAWK YOU... where you get to say Fawk you to anything or anyone...

SO let me say this

Fawk you .... to all the issues that have me stressed.
Fawk you .... to the sunshine that comes out on the days I have to work, but not on the days I'm off.
Fawk you .... to all the papers I need to grade to finish grades.
Fawk you .... to the people that have been so rude/disrespectful lately.

Well anyways I'm sure there are many more but I'm trying to stay in a GOOD mood today!

Slowly But Surely!!!

2010-05-20T11:45:00.000-07:00

So I've been trying to fit time in to make my blog better... I blog at work, but everything is blocked up here for me to improve my blog. But last night I made my header.. its a start at least... needs a lil fixing up but I was super excited bout it. Hubby i think thinks Im nuts lol.. then I started the process for a button, but it did not work right :( guess I'll keep trying when i get a few minutes on the computer. Come On softball Allstars ready for it to be OVER so I actually have time for anything! lol
So anyways been super busy and have not gotten to do my TYVM's today :( maybe I'll get to do them later.

Pour Your Heart Out - Lack of Summer for ME

2010-05-19T07:42:00.000-07:00

It's that time again... the wednesday meme over at Shells which I just LOVE... and because we can talk about ANYTHING its why I love it!

Lets talk about my summer vacation...

Oh or wait the lack of one for the first time in FIVE years.

I have been a teacher for five years (including this one), but this year I have just been a sub. I quit the permanent job I had for the last three. (another story in itself). So for the first time in
Five years I have to actually find a job and work for the summer, while still praying I find a permanent teaching job for next school year.

Can we say DEPRESSSED about it.. YES! I have so LOVED getting to be with my Kids and do things with them. and now they will be at day care all day long (yes getting to do lots of fun things and go places), but still.

Guess I will try to fill the few weekends of the summer up with things we can do, On the weekends I actually have them :(

Sad Sad Sad... :(

But on a happier note.. we only have like 11 days of school left! :)

Follow Me Back Tuesdays..

2010-05-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

Since my button wont post... you really need to go over to

Boobies, Babies, & a Blog or the others that have started this and link up to Follow Me Back Tuesdays.

You know ya wanna make more bloggy friends.. I know I do :)

My second award - SUNSHINE AWARD

2010-05-18T07:16:00.001-07:00

The Sunshine award given to my by Tricia ... which is the award for bloggers whose positivity & creativity inspires others in the blog world. Thanks Tricia.. makes me feel good to know something I am writing is being read and taken in by someone. :)

The rules for accepting these award:
Nominate 12 other bloggers.
List the award in either a post or on your sidebar.
Link your nominees within your post.
Let the nominees know you have passed this on to them by commenting on their blog.
The 12 Bloggers I would like nominate for this award are:

1. boobies, Babies, & a blog
2. Shell @ Things I can't say
3. Vandy @ The Testosterone Three & Me
4.mass hole mommy
5.Tylaine @ Just me.
7.megan @ all a bunch of momsense

Ill stop at 7 and anyone else that wants to share this award ... FEEL FREE :)

ALL BOUT ME - IN NUMBERS

2010-05-17T08:35:00.000-07:00

So I'm hooking up and joining a meme over at MommyBrain and I'm going to tell you all about me using NUMBERS...

29 - years old
1 year 4 months - since I met the love of my life
7 months of being married to him
3 - kids that I birthed
2 - kids that have come to me by marriage
1- adopted kids that I love as if she were my own
1- baby that belongs to the adopted kid that I love even more lol

312 - my angel number i believe... it appears everywhere and i always seem to spot it and maybe the connection there is my birthday

312-123 special number between me and my best friend

5 years of teaching

4 moves in the last 3 years - maybe i am finally in a house that will last awhile

1 brother 1 half sister 1 half brother and 1 adopted brother (not really but he might as well be)

7656 emails waiting to be opened (yes most of them are TRASH)

13 days of school left - then my baby will be in 1st grade and my girls will be in 3rd

650 something friends on facebook

13 hours per week the last few weeks of hours sitting at softball practice

ok i'm sure there are SO M ANY more numbers I can add, but I'll quit boring ya .. lol

Monkey Minute - Monday Minute

2010-05-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

MONKEY MINUTE over at IANS .... and the questions of the week are...

Have you ever peed in the shower/bath/pool?

It is gross... but I'm sure we all have at some point in our life. As kids we enver wnat to get out of the pool to go pee..lol

.What is your biggest pet peeve? Liars, Cheaters, and Slackers.... and a combination of all three is the worse!

What's the story behind your blog title? I am one to Express myself through writing when I am upset usually more than anything, but I am loving blogging and expressing myelf about anything that is goin on in my life, and getting others opinions

What is your definition of success? When you have reached the goals you have set for yourself.. it may not be success in others eyes, but hopefully it is in your own.

If you were famous, what would you want to be famous for? Writing! or even being the best teacher and touching so many lifes.... and of course being the BEST mom,wife, best friends, etc..

So now go hook up and have fun!

WISHING EVERYONE

2010-05-14T12:13:00.001-07:00

JUST REALLY WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A FANTASTIC WEEKEND... MAY IT BE FULL OF FUN, LAUGHTER, AND FAMILY & FRIENDS FOR EACH OF YOU! MY WEEKEND WILL CONSIST OF SOME OF THIS

for my girls softball team - first tourney to practice for state ....

& THIS

& MAYBE EVEN SOME OF THIS

so i hope everyone enjoys there weekend too!!!

Another New Blog Hop :)

2010-05-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the first, ever, edition of Blog Hop Friday, hosted by My New Life As Mom, Chubby Cheeks Thinks, Take A Mom's Word For It, Bree Bee's, This Adventure Our Life and Belly Charms! We invite you and your friends to link up every Friday and join us for a wonderful blog hopping adventure! We're all about making friends and having fun so come join us! Here's how you can join in on the fun;

Link up to your blog, using our inlinkz link list, below.

Follow the host/hostesses located in the first 6 slots.

Follow any other blogs that you feel appropriate! :)

Add the Blog Hop Friday button to your sidebar.

When following a new blog, please remember to leave a little personal comment love.

If you get a new follower, please feel free to reciprocate the love.

and I am going to do this one... maybe I'll make a lot of new friends today :)

So again.. I LOVE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS... SO Welcome, and can't wait to hear from you. Have a great day!

My Call for Help - ya know ya wanna :)

2010-05-13T13:14:00.000-07:00

I really really want a button and an awesome header like everyone has!! But I don't know how to make it or have the time. :( and i see soooo many fantastic buttons on everyones pages... and wanna be a button collector too!! Someone I know wants to help me right...?

I know you cant turn down this sweet face... lol!

Well this is my call of help.. lol

Everyone have a great Thursday Night! I of course get to have softball practice again, then Dinner with the HUBBY!!

My First Award and boy is it a GOOD ONE! :)

2010-05-13T06:50:00.001-07:00

So my friend Jessica over at Adventures of a wife and mom gave me my first award... and I <3>

The rules are I must tell you 5 CHARACTERS with whom I would chose to knock boots with, or bump plastics with in this case I guess. and then of course pass it on!!

So let me see...

Well of course my hubby knockin boots with him is always fun!! :)

Then well.... I sure love me some Jason Aldean.. hate his first name but love him

Then I wouldn't mind being around the sexy Vin Diesel

Then of course I would need some vampire love ...

Then last but not least... I could use some serious time with.... Matthew McConaughey

And Now I want to know what these womens choices would be... So I am hitting you with this award

1 Shell over at Things I can not say

2. ali over at Mommie Life

3. Michelle at Mommy Loves Stilettos

4. purseblogger

5. Tylaine at Just me

TYVM - Thursdays

2010-05-13T06:27:00.000-07:00

I love THANK YOU VERY MUCH Thursdays... it's the best free therapy!

http://thedailydribbles.blogspot.com/

So here it goes...

Thank you very much computer/internet for not letting me put the button on my page for TYVM!
Thank you very much air conditioner for going out on us!!
and while I'm at that TYVM a/c people for not being able to fix it for 5-6 days! REALLY SERIOUSLY
Thank you very much window units for at least cooling the house off enough to sleep!
Thank you very much weather for being nasty on Sunday (mother's day) when I wanted it to be hot and pretty and instead you were hot and pretty on Monday when I had to be at work.
Thank you very much to my daughters for making ALLSTARS and forcing us to be at allstar practice everynight from 530-7 or 730... seems it has taken over our lives lol but I do love it!
Thank you very much to the job I interviewed for and then they waited to the last minute to email me and say they gave it to someone from within!

So anyways as usual these are the ones that stand out the most right now. lol

PYHO - Reality vs Fairy Tale

2010-05-12T12:00:00.000-07:00

As per the last few weeks.. it's Wednesday and I want to participate in the usual PYHO

Topic for today.... Reality vs Fairy Tale

As a little girl we all or at leastmost of us wanted that whole FAIRY TALE romance... even tomboyish lil me wanted it. Now of coursemost of us don't really ever have the perfect fairy tale.. but I'd like to think I at least found my perfect Prince. But really todays reality vs fairy tale is not about me it's about some other people I know.

So two friends of mine and hubbys have hooked up and decided to "date"... so your thinking oh thats cool no big deal right... WRONG... the reason it has become a big deal, within the last three weeks of them getting together... they have become Not so great friends... hurting those that were their friends first.

Reality of it is - She was hurt very very bad many many times over and just got out of an on/off relationship of two years (whom she really wanted to be with)
He got out of a 15 year marriage about a year ago.

Now I will be the first one to say I am not knockin instant connections or love or whatever.. (HUBBY AND I FELL HARD AND FAST, BUT I'D ALREADY BEEN AWAY FROM MY EX FOR OVER TWO YEARS AND WAS OVER HIM WAY BEFORE WE FINALLY GOT THE OFFICIAL DIVORCE).. But see danny and I have been around these two for awhile now and all of a sudden their whole personalities have changed.

When the four of us hang out.. danny and i feel very uncomfortable like we really are not wanted there, even though weeks before the four of us could hang out and have a great time.

So Reality of the guy friend is this - danny texted guy friend and said we shouldn't hang out anymore, needless to say guy friend is clueless about why... oh why cuz he has his head soooo FAR up girl friends butt he can't see that he has been hurting danny. His first response wasn't "well why danny whats going on?" it was "why can't you just be happy I'm happy with her etc... ".can we see where this is going? Prior ties not straight or what?!

Fairy tale is this - guy is... BLINDED by "LOVE"

Back to reality of the girl friend - so yea she was basically living at mine and danny's house for three weeks, doing just bout everything with us.. still hung up on ex boyfriend to the point of saying all kinds of hurtful things to me (OK TIME TO FILL YOU IN JUST A LIL BIT ... her exboyfriend was my EX HUSBAND the X i talk bout on here. yes weird I know but...our kids are best friends). So back the story... the past two weeks even she has been blowing me off for him...

Hate the onesided friendship thing.. hate that danny and I were good enough for the two of them to hang out with till they basically found something better. We dont care if they date.. we just wanted our friendship intact.

Fairytale again - guy friend is on a mission to basically in my mind "buy" this girl friends love.. by takin her to do all the things she never has, anything she mentions that shelikes or would like he goes overboard to have done... Now this may seem sweet and all but in REALITY this is not the guy friend we know...we've tried talkin to her bout it but they both think we are just being ANTI - THEM.

SO WHAT DO WE DO? GUESS AT THIS POINT WE SIT BACK AND WATCH THEIR RELATIONSHIP UNFOLD IN SOME FORM OR FASHION.. GOOD OR BAD..

UNLESS ANYONE HAS ANY OTHER ADVICE FOR ME/US. There is probably so much more of this story I left out.. and it may seem all broken and jumbled but... it's just really bugging me and hubby how we've been treated and are still being treated in some ways.. I'm sure this is just post 1 about it all .. lol thanks again for reading my drama as i pour my heart out again!

BLOG FRIENDS ARE THE BEST.. and I'm so glad I've made some!

TwinHAppy Tuesday hop

2010-05-11T06:34:00.000-07:00

.Over at Twin Happy.... http://twinhappyjen.blogspot.com

the TwinTuesday QOTW is:
Finish this line: You know you're no longer a NEW Twin Mom when...

So my answer to this ? goes right along with Jen's... but still

As a mom of twins I've always been asked are they twins? They are now to the age they answer the ?s... yes we are twins, we are 7 mins apart... yes we look just like mommy... and they do since the day they were born.

But also I know I'm not a new twin mommy when I am not buying my girls the exact same matching outfits anymore... I use to buy everything the same with just an occasional same but different color... now it's more of either let them pick or the same but different type outfits.

mothers day ... yesterday

2010-05-10T11:36:00.000-07:00

my babies on mothers day yesterday .... riding the ferry too Galveston!! My flowers from my babies and my hubby!!!
I LOVE THEM ALL SOOOOOO VERY MUCH!!!

Really... Seriously... Do you Even Know?

2010-05-10T06:52:00.000-07:00

So last week in honor of mothers day I talked about my stepmom (MOM to me) she is amazing and I love her!.. well today I want to rant bout the womb carrier.. or the biological mother as I've called her for years... we will stick with BM through out this post...

So saturday night about 11pm BM calls to wish me Happy Mother's Day, I thought oh interesting, ok.. "happy mothers day to you to."... she then tells me that she loves me, and is proud of me, etc.. ok so here we are thinking this is not a bad convo at all.. actually I was feeling like maybe she does care a lil bit bout me and my kids etc... (though she has seen my 3 like maybe ummmm 10 times in 8yrs.. and that is usually when i run into her in HEB or Walmart)... but of course she couldn't leave the convo at Happy Mother's day.. I'm proud of you etc.. it had to go WAY DOWN HILL. She is the one that LEFT and No matterwhat the circumstances of her leaving she left.. and though I'm an adult now.. in my mind she still LEFT. ... but to leave out all the years and years worth of stories I'll pin point a few things...

she wasnt at ANY school function growing up.. academic/ extra curricular
she wasnt at wedding shower... my first wedding...my twins baby shower.. my twins being born... my son being born... or even my second wedding 7 months ago
SHE WAS INVITED TO ALL OF THE ABOVE
she can't stand to be around my dad/mom my grandparents.. so instead she chooses not to be part of my life yet tries to put the blame on me (her daughter) seriously what the hell

So everytime I consider even attempting a relationship with her.. she does something stupid ...

Yesterday I put on facebook.as my status.. Going to eat with the parents (wanted to put mom/dad but decided to be nice and just put parents), grandparents, aunt/uncle.. Had a great day even if it wasnt what I wanted it to be... but my family made it GREAT.

The BM then goes and puts on my facebook... Never satisfied what do u expect from a SPOILED brat... I love u tab but its true.

Seriously that is what she put... are you kidding me...

this woman does NOT even know me... does not know much about me cept what she reads on my stupid facebook... she couldnt probably tell you my fav color, my fav food,my fav movie... she has no idea what i like to do or what hurts me the most. yet she wants to call me a SPOILED brat... (now even if i am spoiled at times.. she should be able to go to sleep each night so peacefully knowing she did not make me that way lol).

When I read her little comment, I was SO MAD... So I know this.. no matter what her excuses and where she wants to put her BLAME.. which she still takes NO Blame for her not being in my life... she blames me, my dad, my mom, my grandparents.. but doesnt take any her for herself.. at 47 years old she is still putting fault everywhere else.

She is suppose to be the MOTHER and I'm suppose to be the kid.. no matter the age.. but anyways...

I know who raised me and who was there for me and it was not her.. it was my DADDY (whom i've posted about ) and then my mom that has loved me since I was 8 (whom i posted about last week). I LOVE THEM... and as much as at times it breaks my heart to not have a relationship with the BM.. most days my life is MUCH better without her DRAMA!

Thanks for reading everyone.. I just needed to get some stuff out at least a little of it.

My MOM - Mother's day edition early

2010-05-07T06:31:00.000-07:00

In honor of Mother's day this sunday, I am going to write about my mom! (since I usually don't have time to get on during the weekend.)

My mom, Kasey, has been my mom since I was 8yrs old. My biological mom left when I was 5, (she still only comes around when she wants). My daddy married Kasey, when I was 8... now the interesting part about it she is only 11 years older than me. At the age of 8 and 19 it didnt seem as close as it may to some now. But she is an amazing woman... she took on marrying my dad, and raising me and my lil brother. I CAN NOT imagine where I would be if she had not come into my daddy and our lives. My daddy is a good man and did the besthe could in those three years after my biomom left. I was the tomboy in the neighborhood, she made me a lil more girly.. lol :)
I remember the first dress she ever bought me... I SOOOO didn't want to put it on. I'd much rather play with the boys outside.
She was always at every school function and extra curricular activity I was involved in from middle school thru high school. In 8th grade I chose to write a paper about her as the person I admired the most! She has always been so involved in our community (one of those everyone knows my mom or knows I am her daughter kind of things lol). Can't even go to the store without her knowing someone every ten steps. She has been so amazing, though overbearing at times, she always voices her opinion. I love her so much, she is one of my best friends.

I've always said I wanted to be like her, where I could balance my work and my kids schedules as well as she did/does. I have a half sister that is my precious baby sister and I know she will have MOM at everything just as she was at all of my stuff and I wasn't her biological kid.

She never has treated us (my bro and me) as anything but HER kids.. and would have adopted us in a heart beat if given the chance!
I LOVE HER!!!

She is so talented, and right there when I needed her help for my wedding, she did my flowers, catered, and did the decorations. She is so wonderful.

She is the best NAN to my kids, they love her too. She spoils them like grandparents do. Always getting them lil things here and there.

So HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM... I LOVE YOU!!

FRI FOLLOW - FRIEND TIME

2010-05-07T06:17:00.001-07:00

ITS THAT TIME AGAIN... COME ON EVERYONE LETS MAKE NEW FRIENDS!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY E

2010-05-06T11:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ETHAN.. MY BABY BOY IS SIX TODAY!!! HE IS THE BABY OF MY PRECIOUS, AMAZING KIDS. i HOPE HE HAD A FANTASTIC DAY TODAY. HE IS MY LIL COWBOY! I LOVE YOU SON!!!

Pour Your Heart Out - E edition

2010-05-05T06:27:00.000-07:00

IT'S WEDNESDAY AGAIN!!! one of my favorite days of the week in blog world... I love the meme over at Shells.....

So lets get to pouring... So i want to pour it out bout my son! Tomorrow my baby boy, ETHAN, turns 6.. yes 6 and I can't believe it. Six years ago he was the best mothers day present ever for me :) Being pregnant with him was worse than being preggo with my twins, but I'd do it all again. He is the sweetest little boy I know.. and I can't believe how much he has grown. I call him my lil superson, or sometimes we call hm Evu.. or here lately I call him booboo (which when asked if he wanted me to call him EJ cuz there are four ethan's in his class and three on his baseball team, he said no i still like booboo mommy! :) Yesterday my mom and I took him to get his first pair of real cowboy boots and a cowboy hat...

He is my baby and he knows I will cry tomorrow lol... He is so funny and though he looks like his daddy and loves being at his dads he is still such a momma's boy.. and I know he will grow out of that soon. But still makes me feel so good when he wants to curl up in my lap or get in my bed to go to sleep! He makes me laugh everyday and I dont think Ive seen him ever so excited about a birthday as this year. I cant wait for to see him all dressed up tom in his cowboy attire (pics will come). Sometimes I think his older (twin sisters) get to do so much more than him, but now that he is getting older his time is coming and I am so excited to see what he is going to excel at.. he loves baseball.... his loves his sisters and his mommy! I am so proud to be his mommy! I love him so very much... sometimes I still can't beleive how much we are able to love our children.

Here are a few pics of my boy! and tomorrow I will post him in his cowboy attire for his birthday!

Thanks for reading bout my baby!

Monday Minute again

2010-05-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

It's that wonderful fun time again over at IAN's...

1 - How much would you have to be paid to eat a human cadaver's finger?
um ewww.. but ya know give me a few million dollars and i'd try to imagine it as chicken or something... what i could do with some money these days

2 - Describe the worst physical fight you've ever been in.
Never been in a real physical fight.. unless you count those pushng and shoving matches with the ex husband... and beating his back till he let go of me! but ya know.. now there have been some times I wanted to beat some girls and guys down...lol

3 - Name one song that if you never heard it ever again, you'd be thrilled.
most of miley cyrus's songs.. i get so tired of boom boom clap.. but my girls LOVE it

.4 - Describe the "drunkest" situation you've ever been.
Oh geez... there have been a few of those.... those nights you can't remember how you got home, or the next day someone mentions waffle house and you go... WHAT? we went to waffle house and I ate What?... or having your friend drive down the feeder road the wrong way... (thank GOD there were no cars or cops)... and we made it home safe and sound... or driving down the road after your cuzs wedding.. laid out in the back seat with the door open pucking... NOT PRETTY at all. thank GOD for my best friends boyfriend! wow those are some moments not worth reliving

5 - What's your biggest regret?
My biggest regret would be letting others opinons get in my way of doing what would make me happy ( no mind you today I'm probaby better off because I chose to care what others thing and Im getting way better at that. But I also regret not going off to school and living with my bf.. things may would be so different right now if i would have. (though i am happy with my life)

friday follow.. make some friends

2010-04-30T08:12:00.001-07:00

It's that day of the week again... Lets make some NEW FRIENDS!!!

randoms thursday

2010-04-29T11:00:00.000-07:00

so its another crazy day....

things are always insane around here... with allstars and all the fundraising etc... which if anyone wants some scentsy candles let me know... then on top of it we are still trying to unpack the new house, have been so swamped we are living out of boxes and bags...been trying to find a job.. cuz I NEED one like ohhh um yesterday..

then i stress bout my babies going to Arkansas this weekend, just makes me nervous ya know... and then my baby boy turns 6 next week, I can't believe how big he has gotten, so I have a party to plan around his Tball game and Allstar fundraiser.

But on a good note, My hubby got to eat lunch with me today (which never gets to happen) and tomorrow night I get to go see REBA with one of my best friends!!!
What a busy weekend we have... I get to go see another woman join the BACH family, which I am so blessed to be part of (which means I get to see my hubby in a tux for the second time, first was when he married me). Got to love a man in a tux!

Then hopefully we will have some relaxation on sunday as we make a trip to the beach weather permitting. SO if for some reason I don't get to jump on here tomorrow for Friday Follow.. hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!!

POUR YOUR HEART OUT - X ISSUE!!

2010-04-28T06:36:00.000-07:00

It's That time again.. my fav meme over at SHELLS... time to Pour YOUR or shall I say MY heart out!!

Well this is not the first time and I know it won't be the last time but today I am going to complain a little

See my ex and I have shared custody of my (i guess Ill say our) three kids (the twins and my baby boy)... We have them a week at a time.. from Friday to Friday!
I DO NOT get any child support or anything.. he is required to have them on his insurance and pay daycare (which will only be for another few years .... THEN WHAT?)

To top it off he makes probably TWICE if not more than that than me... especially right now since I have not had a full job just been subbing!... so anyways
the girls have been playing softball for the last three year (which he encouraged first) but guess who usually pays for everything that has to do with it .. oh wait bet you couldn't guess ME! So this past weekend the girls wanted to sign up for cheer leading.. not my fav idea.. but its not for me its for them... and If they wanted to do it I wanted to let them try.. so i call up X and ask him.. he agrees as long as no matter who's weekend it is I TAKE THEM...he doesn't want to go watch every Saturday some kids play football while his girls are cheering... ok whatever so be it.. I agree.. he agreed to pay for the whole thing basically at this time. SO my hubby said OK go sign them up (must pause here to say my hubby is the BEST STEP DADDY ever .. he even is coaching softball for my girls ALLSTAR team)... So I write a check, get them signed up etc... then when its time for X to give me money back guess what he does..... oh did u guess any of you...
HE ONLY GIVES ME 1/2!!! WTF ... now lets just say HUBBY was beyond MAD and wanted to KICK some you know what! (had to get him to calm down at the softball tourney)

So on top of that as I have already posted my girls made all stars for softball.. can we say MORE $$$$$... and I know X who thinks all the lil nick nack crap that most parents (moms) want to buy the team .. are STUPID.. will give me crap and not help us. ALWAYS has some excuse. yet always has money for hunting and going in boat etc...

SO that is just what is so Frustrating right now bout my X!

Then just a short thing bout my hubbys X.... she went and bought a dress for their daughter (my stepdaughter.. for my hubbys brothers wedding..(this weekend) she sends a pic msg to his phone.. the dress is HOT PINK with bright polka dots...he preceeds to tell her.. this is going to class with the colors of the wedding (candy apple red).. so every picture will she will class and take away from the bride... his X then said "oh well she isn't in the wedding anyways" and "i am not buying a dif dress or taking this one back"... WTF can we say she is a B! So my hubby has to go find a dif dress for his daughter before the wedding.. so that she doesn't look like an Easter egg in all the family pics.

I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND SOMETIMES WHY THESE EXS ARE SO HATEFUL... DO FOR YOUR KIDS.. ITS NOT FOR US ITS FOR YOUR KIDS...

SO ANYWAYS SORRY IF I BORED YOU TODAY... i just really NEEDED to POUR MY HEART OUT!!!

loves y'all

LONG WEEKEND

2010-04-26T12:06:00.000-07:00

Well we had a softball tourney this weekend...spent fri and all day saturday at the softball fields.. MY GIRLS DID SO AWESOME!! and they made ALLSTARS!!

between softball games hubby and I moved some more stuff, and started cleaning the old house. This has just been ONE LONG weekend. Then on top of all of that.. I was hoping to go to bed early last night but then my daddy had to go to ER... that is one of those gut wrenching calls. HE is OK though.. but made for a LOONNNGGG NIGHT.
SO anyways... say a prayer for me to get through this week.. TAKS testing makes for a long week!

TRUE FRIENDS -

2010-04-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

TRUE - by defintion.com real- genuine; authentic: sincere; not deceitful

FRIEND - by definition.com - a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

So I've always considered myself a TRUE FRIEND... I've always been the one that was ALWAYS there even when that same friend may not have always been there for me. I've had friends love me, use me, treat me like crap, treat me great, but I was ALWAYS there for them.

I understand we all have been hurt a time or two probably by friends but sometimes I wonder what do I have to do to let someone know they can trust me and I can be the best friend you've ever had. I see someone in need of a REAL TRUE friend I try to be there.
Here in the last few weeks I've had some "friends" say some things and do some things that were very hateful or hurtful and in all HONESTY I should probably not be their friends anymore... but since my HEART is SO BIG... as usual I forgive, (because that's what I am suppose to do) and I move on and keep on being the BEST friend.

Why is this? I don't know sometimes... cuz when I do get hurt I am the one truly upset, and trying to figure out what I did wrong (when 99% of the time I did nothing wrong) they just took something out on me, or assumed things or who knows.

So maybe I looked up the definitions of TRUE and FRIEND
but here is mine...

A TRUE FRIEND, IS SOMEONE THAT IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT, WHEN, OR WHY... THEY ARE THE ONE YOU WOULD/CAN CALL AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY OR NIGHT. THE FRIEND THAT YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR IF THEY WERE IN TROUBLE OR NEEDED SOMETHING. THE ONE YOU CRY TO, LAUGH WITH, ETC.. THEY ARE THE ONES THAT IF YOU NEEDED ANYTHING WOULD DO THE SAME FOR YOU. THE ONES YOUR SUPPOSE TO HAVE MEMORIES WITH FOR A LIFETIME...

Now I've learned friends come and go... but really if you have a TRUE friend, it doesn't matter how many days or months, even years sometimes go by.. they are still there for you!

So what do you think what is a true friend? What are your thoughts on it?

Friday Follow... lets make friends

2010-04-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

It's that time again... LETS BE FRIENDS!!!

In Need of a New Fairy

2010-04-22T06:18:00.000-07:00

Well everyone I am back, I missed getting to read everyones posts yesterday... :(
but hubby and I managed to not kill each other and got EVERYTHING moved from one house to the new house... Now I am in need of 1 cleaning fairy for the old house & 1 unpacking fairy at the new house... I have places on my body I didn't even know existed hurting today! The kids love the new house, though they all slept in the same room last night, it was the only one with a TV for the moment and of ALL their DVDs they chose to watch the freaking Barbie Twelve Days of Christmas... I mean really... even my poor son was into it. lol I guess whatever works, I was just glad my room was at the other end of the house. As much as I LOVE Christmas.. I had no desire to hear Christmas carols in April. So anyways, Hope to catch up on everyones posts... especially my fav meme on Wed .. Pour Your Heart Out.

Hope everyone had a great day yesterday... and has a great one today!

TOOO MUCH TUESDAY

2010-04-20T13:00:00.000-07:00

Oh what a whirlwind of a few days... and still going. Tomorrow I may miss out on my favorite meme .. POUR YOUR HEART OUT... but I will pick it up later or maybe late tonight.

I will be packing and trying to finish moving all the stuff from one house to another. Hubby and I both took the day off so just maybe we can get everything moved. Work is stressing me out, moving is stressing me out, friendships are stressing me out. To many people involved in a tangled mess I guess. But least I am trying to keep a balance between it all!

So I will be back later though!

Trapped!

2010-04-19T09:40:00.000-07:00

So I am feeling trapped right now bout some things....see this weekend went from fantastic to sucky in like two seconds flat...of course alcohol was involved but right now Im feeling trapped in a spot of what to do now....see some things got said that REALLY REALLY hurt my feelings.And i think we both need to talk about it, but right now I was just glad we talked this morning,but feel like there is so much that needs to be said.But in truth it wasnt really my fault...I just keep being accused of somethings thatARE NO WHERE NEAR THE TRUTH.I dont know what else to say bout it,cept Ive been done with my EX and don't want himor anything to do with him.. i talk to him whenits about our KIDS and thats usually IT!so how do I get to the bottom of it without itbeing another fight. I DONT KNOW..do I just let it all go...I dont want to lose her friendshipshe makes me laugh and we have A LOT of fun together. so what ya think

Monday Minute

2010-04-19T06:54:00.000-07:00

It's MONDAY AGAIN... so I am participating again over at ........

1 - Ever take a shit in the woods?
Yea back when we would go in the woods and were to far from camp.

2 - If you won $1,000, what's the first thing you would do with it besides give me a cut?
Right now I'd use it on some much needed things for our house! Since we are still in process of moving.

3 - What's your favorite phrase?
"another day in the park"

4 - Fill in the blank - the world would be a better place if ______ left the planet.
the world would be a better place if MY EXHUSBAND and my hubbys EX WIFE left the planet

5 - How do you take your coffee or tea?

I heart sweet tea from sonic... or red diamond... live off it!

I love Softball - for How many more years?

2010-04-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

So both of my girls are playing softball again this year.. and boy is it time consuming!! Practices and leauge play and the tourneys on the weekends. One of the twins LOVES the game and is really good at it... the other one is good at it but just doesn't have the heart like her sister. The past two years it has not been as competitive till ALL STARS.. but man this year is so competitive and they get so down when we lose, or they strike out etc... SO as leauge play is coming to an end we will have a month of ALL STAR practice if either kid makes it, and then a lil break till FALL... but man it taakes up sooo much of our time.. BUT I LOVE IT.. I love watching them play and learn how to play. I love when either of them hits the ball so hard and far they are super excited when they come back into the dug out.. SO I wonder how many moreyears of softball do I have... well at the rate they are going I have at least 10 more years of it!

Ready for our tourney this weekend... GO HYPERACTIVE!!

Friday Follow

2010-04-16T06:28:00.000-07:00

It's that time again...make some new friends!!

THE TROUBLE WITH EXS - from my POV

2010-04-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

So I know the majority of us have at least one EX that we can't stand or that gives massive HELL... well between my hubby and I we have two .. HIS & MINE!

Now don't get me wrong they of course have their moments when they are as normal as can be... but the majority of the time they are just plain ......... ________ (you can fill in the blank with just bout any negative word and it fits 95% of the time).

Not saying that either of these people are bad parents per say but... I am sure you all know how it works.

For example...my ex he tries so hard to be a good dad... but always tells my kids to not tell me certain things cuz I'm going to "cry" about it.. which in turn he means I'm going to throw a fit that he went and bought a new hunting bow but tells me he don't have money to buy something that the kids need. Well let me just say YES I am going to gripe a little... or for example today he said YES I will help pay to but the girls in a rec cheerleading thing, but even on my weekends you have to bring them cuz I don't wanna go watch some other boys play football and the girls will probably barely cheer anyways he dont wanna waste his weekends... that kind of stuff drives me crazy... or I call to talk to them and he NEVER has his phone.. what if it was an emergency? oh well anyways I could go on an on an on... like how its ok for him to do certain things, but soon as he finds out I did he causes a scene.... as long as its his idea its all good... he was that way while married too.. but still his... there are many other things I could go on an on about but wont.

NOw to my Danny's ex wife= She is one of those women that I got a divorce and was Queen Witch. And she has always beent he one to say one thing but then DO ANOTHER anytime it FITS her. Yesterday for example.. Danny went to have dinner with the kids but was going to bring them home early like 6ish and well guess what she was going like an hour plus away to eat dinner with her new fiance' (which is a LONG STORY you would all find so interesting)...and wouldnt be home in time to get HER kids. She never sends enough diapers for the lil one... and usually Taylor doesn't have the right clothes packed based on the weather outside. Then to top it ALL off she is getting to Move two hours away and my poor Husband will barely get to see his kids.. andhe is one of the most amazing MEN ever... an awesome daddy.. trys to go to everything Taylor wants him at for school... and now he will have to miss out On so MUCh of hers and lil Christians lives .. and it is hurting him SO bad. She is one of those that always has some Crap to say cuz she doesnt know the whole story, but then acts like a middle schooler and hangs up when she don't like the conversation... (MY EX DOES THAT TOO)... HAte that!

I know we all have had some sort of experiences like these.. and Im sure you know that this little bit of info doesn't come close to all the tales I got tell.

But I do know this.... I have the most amazing husband and i hate seeing him hurt over her.. just as I know he hates when my ex has made me feel an inch big again and i am crying my eyes out cuz he has once again said something so hateful/hurtful... I know that our children see a lot of the way our ex's are.. (mine say things to me all the time that makes me know they know how their father treats me)... and one day I hope that our exs will see how the BAD things they say bout their childrens other parent effects them.

I LOVE MY HUSBAND and ALL FIVE of OUR CHILDREN!!! and the LIFE we are trying SO Hard To Give them!

TYVM.... 4/15/10

2010-04-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

It's that time again.... Time to say THANK YOU VERY MUCH....

http://thedailydribbles.blogspot.com/

So to my class full of students - THANK YOU VERY MUCH for obviously not STUDYING anything we have went over this year and doing HORRIBLE on the practice TAKS questions I gave you yesterday.. makes me feel Ive wasted the whole year.

To the hair on my legs.... TYVM... I seriously get tired of you growing and me having to shave least three times aweek..

To My EX Husband .... TYVM... for not answering the phone when I just want to tell my kids I miss them and Love them... boy does it irritate me.

TO My New HUBBY's Ex wife.... TYVM for upsetting him so much yesterday... it left him in such a great mood to come home to me... ( even if He finallly got over it and we were fine)

and again to the freaking POLLEN... TYVM... my eyes HURT so bad.

So I am sure there are plenty more of these I could do today but I will wait.. :)

Pour Your Heart OUT - ESTEEM

2010-04-14T07:33:00.000-07:00

as I have the past few weeks I am participating in Shells, meme......

and this week I want to Pour My Heart Out about..... Myself, the way I view myself..etc....

Well growing up, I can't say I had the best self-esteem but I wouldnt say I had the worse... In middle school it was never an issue.. In high school... I was one of those friends with everyone kind of people.. didn't really have a click, but was a band nerd, flag corp, and on yearbook staff. When it came to boyfriends, I had plenty but looking back I'm sure I could have done better on a few of my choices. I was skinny, and hated those girls that said they were fat that were smaller than me...but some things happened my Senior year that broke me... and to be honest I haven't been the same since. But God has healed those wounds, (probably still doing so).... but then I married my EX Husband, (after getting preggo with my twins)... and I went from being tiny to being HUGE... had them and could not shake the baby weight, got really down etc... but finally managed to get back into my size before having the girls... and BAM found out I was preggo with my SON.. and well that was six years ago and I can NOT get back into that size no matter what I try. It's not that I don't turn guys attention or whatever but that crap has never mattered to me.. I just want to look in the mirror again and say ok... you Look HOT....lol

Yesterday someone told me I was one of the most positive people they know... and that threw me for a loop... maybe because here in the last few years I have not felt very uplifting and positive. My ex-husband made me feel so small and insignificant that it is taking so much to be the "happy go lucky" girl again. People that knew me before I married him sometimes tellme how much I changed... (not in a good way)... and it is taking a lot of effort, faith to try to get back to the old me... Though i will never be the OLD me.... I am trying to become a NEW me.

With such an amazing husband now, poor danny suffers sometiems for the way my ex made me feel.. At first it was so hard for me to open up to him bout things.. I could write about it for days and days, but not talk about it. He tells me I am beautiful everyday, knowing that when I go into the bedroom to get dressed there is a 90% chance I am going to get upset.. since clothes that fit me even in August I can't seem to fit into today. Danny has helped me with my feeling better bout myself, that and forgiving myself for things, and just letting go of some other things.

Now I know I am a good mom, I love my kids so much, I am the best friend you could have if you manage to get into my heart... I am compassionate and caring, and just want to HELP everyone I can. I am a good wife.

My self esteem is rising... and I'm working on pushing all the negative thoughts out... and just thinking positivly and it is working on most days.

So to all of you out there... just remember YOU are Beautiful too and GOD loves you and so do I!!!

Tuesdays Thoughs

2010-04-13T11:28:00.000-07:00

So here it is another day.. and as I've been trying to be more positive lately... and since I have tried giving everything over to GOD.. my worries, my stress, my weight issues, my money issues, etc... it seems

Things might be LOOKIN up for me, I have my fingers crossed.... as previously posted we got a new house... and today I got a job interview... so everyone just say a lil prayer for me and I will keep ya all posted.

Well been kinda busy this day... so not much to post and Im bout to leave work to go start packing some more stuff!!! woohooo

see everyone tom... for a WONDERFUL WEDNESDAY!!!

Blogaholics Anonymous Mondays

2010-04-12T09:47:00.000-07:00

Just gonna go right at today...

Hey, Im Tabatha and I'm a blogoholic....

I would like to confess now that I am getting more followers it sure does make writing even more fun and rewarding to get some feedback on things.
I love making new friends so ... keep the new followers coming and if ya have friends send my way :)
Ali asked bout spring cleaning on her confessional... and well I have not had time to do the cleaning I would like but now that we are bout to move.. see previous blog... I will be doing somemassive cleaning out and throwing away before getting us situated in our new house.

Confession... I get to blog way more at work than I do at home.. and so many things are blocked by work computer it makes me sadI would love to have one of the cutesy buttons and layouts but can't figure out how to get the button or the lil roller thing with all the blogs I <3>

But anyways... I know God is Great and is doing some amazing things in my life right now... I just have to keep praying he will continue to help me and relieve some of the stress since I gave it all over to him (still workin on it).

HOpe everyone has a great monday.. thats all my confessions for today!!

How AWESOME IS IT

2010-04-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

WELL GOD IS AWESOME... AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON...

so to fill you in.. Hubby and I have been trying to find a bigger house... since we got married the little two bedroom I was in just isn't cutting it when we have all five kids. Money has been a major pain in our butt if you know what I mean, so tryin to find one we could afford... is/was like WHATEVER... but we found one.. then the guy told me they rented it to someone else... (so upset)... but then by GOD"S Amazing Plan... the man texted me Friday night and told us it was ours if we wanted it...

SO now we get to go from a lil two bedroom house to a three/four bedroom house with a GIGANTIC back yard... (pics to come soon)... for only get this $50 more a month..
So SO freaking happy.. just not about trying to PACK and CLEAn and MOVE everything within the next two weeks... between... softball games, baseball games, practice... tournaments... and me having a MAJOR test to take this weekend.

So if my post seem to get a little STRESSED sounding I apologize NOW..lol.

Thank you GOD for all you do in MY LIFE!
HAPPY MONDAY

MOnday Minute #2

2010-04-12T06:15:00.000-07:00

It's that time again over at http://thedailydoseofreality.blogspot.com/

At what age did you lose your virginity? well I was 15.... guess if ya wanna say There was this one time at Summer Band Camp

Any good sex tips or advice?
Get out of the box and make it fun and adventurous :) be spontaneous

Lights on or off when you have sex?
depends on who it was I was with... long ago it Really depended on those beer goggles lol
now its with my amazing husband, so if the lights are on great.. if not... hey that works too just depends on the mood of the moment..

Have you ever been caught in the act of having sex?
um yup... not a good thing to explain

.Ever catch your parents (or kids) having sex?

eww no.... and talk about a bad bad mental picture just by asking that question...

2010-04-09T12:13:00.000-07:00

So over at

there is this

It seemed kinda fun so I thought I would give it a try.. Here are my confessions...

i try so hard to be organized but i really have issues
sometimes i feel so bad when my girls are in a double elimination softball tourney and i am ready for them to lose their second game.. so we can go home
cooking... well not for me .... unless i just want something
my so called diet... well ask again WHAT DIET
my goal of walking a mile a day.. well I made it one day and had an excuse of it being to cold yesterday...
BIG confession... the weekends my kids go to their daddy I am relieved do get a break... but then miss them as soon as Sunday is over...
i sometimes color in the kids coloring books even when they are not around

Well those are just a few I figured I could start with.. :)

First Impressions - Second Chances - Dont Judge a BOOK By its Cover

2010-04-09T08:54:00.000-07:00

So we all know that "first impressions" are soooo IMPORTANT... but I've begun to think maybe not so... We also have always been told "Don't Judge a Book by Its Cover".... which in my opinon contradicts the whole make a good first impression or it will hurt you at times..

So now for my reasoning behind this... My exhusband started dating a girl... and my "first" impression of her was she was quiet.. maybe a little "Bitchy" or something... Now don't get the wrong impression here .. we did speak to each other at my girls softball games etc... the usual hey how are you..and that was it.... but I think a lot of the reason we didnt REALLY ever talk was my ex...

So her children LOVE my children and vice versa... and I got her oldest on my oldest twins fall softball team... and even in more of a twist.. on her birthday she called me and wanted to have a drink.. so i did. (weird I know... but this woman was around my kids A LOT).... so after having this drink we found out we have SOOOO much in common. (not including my ex husband) LOL....
and since last year we have grown to talking so much more... and here lately we talk EVERYDAY...
(now mind you my ex and her are not dating anymore they are jsut friend because of the kids, but he really don't like that we are friends)....

I have found out she is one of the funniest women I know.. she makes me laugh everyday.. Her children which i call love bug and buttercup are almost like my own.. I truly love them to pieces.
She is such an amazing woman, christian woman... and has a HUGE Heart... in the last few weeks I have felt like she has become one of my best friends... we get along so well. I love her to death.
Of course there are moments when things may seem a little odd.. but oh well. We truly click.. and I am so blessed God has put her in my life. she has been there to listen to me when at moments I didnt want to talk to anyone else... I truly hope our friendship continues to grow.

I know there are so many people that see us and are wondering WTH we are doing hanging out and laughing and talkin together, but I dont care cuz she is truly an AMAZING mom to her kids, and is great to my kids, and is so much fun to be around, she doesn't judge people for their mistakes nor does she listen to what others say, she makes her own opinions and doesnt care what others think. She has been a wonderful friend to me in our short time of becoming close, and I love getting to see what she will make me laugh about each day.

SO again let me say... First Impressions may be important, but we must not Judge the Book by its Cover, cuz what is inside can be something GOD send your way... so give it a chance and see what happens.

This is to my new bb (she knows what that stands for) :) .... I <3>

will post a pic of us when i get back to my home computer :)

FRIDAY FOLLOW... :)

2010-04-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

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2010-04-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

Over at
Blog Archive there is

and todays topic is.... What are your Top 3 favorite ages?
( Or, your Top 3 favorite ages for your kids?)

so... I think I will do a both just for the FUN of it

#3 favorite age of mine would be 18 Senior year in HS... had the best group of friends and just made so many memories - sometimes wish I could go back for a time.

#3 favorite age of my daughters would be age 3... the terrible twos were terrible threes and came in as twins so it was loads of fun at that time

#2 favorite age of mine would be 21... the moment I saw my twins for the first time in person... and though it was tough to be raising twins I managed to grow up and learn a lot.. (especially for when lil man came along)

#2 favorite age of the kids would be my sons age of 5 (he is bout to be 6 next month)... I love that he is so sweet and loving to his mommy, always telling me he loves me, and hugging on me... (I know those days won't last as he gets to be bigger)

#1 favorite age of myself would be age 28/29 (since i just had a birthday) - I have met the most amazing man, DANNY, and married him and we have such a strong bond and have so much fun, he makes me laugh and we enjoy every minute of each other and of being with all 5 of our kids.

#1 favorite age of kids would be the girls age right now 7 (almost 8) - I love how independent they are yet still want their mommy to help them... I love how they enjoy softball and I get to be there to watch every minute of it.

I know as my kids get older my favorite ages of them will change... but really I think I have ENJOYED and LOVED every minute of them growing up so far... even those terrible threes... and Ethan's terrible twos...its definitely WHAT MEMORIES ARE MADE OF!!

Trying A new Plan - for my diet/stress

2010-04-08T11:40:00.000-07:00

I wake up every day with the realization that this is it, that there's only one shot at this life and I can either enjoy the ride and live it to its fullest and to my highest potential or I can stay the way I am.

I need to be more something..... I know I have had some issue here lately.

For He has satisfied the thirsty soul, and the hungry soul He has filled with what
is good. Psalm 107:9

Maybe if I give it ALL to Him... HE will help me...

I will try harder to let GOD lead me, and RID me of all my STRESSFUL issues. (job issue, money issue, house issue... and even my weight issue)
I will try to walk at least a mile...as many days as possible in a row
I will drink more water again... (maybe even try to do diet dr pepper) ugh lol
Already slacked on desserts and junk food... (but a girls got to eat and I can't give up my potatos) lol :)

I know this will be hard at times.. I just need a little bit of encouragement and motivation. But figured short simple goals might help... and we will see what happens.

Thank YOU very Much

2010-04-08T06:50:00.000-07:00

It's Free Therapy Day!! That's right, it's Thursday, which means it's the Thank You Very Much day. The way it works is that you take out all your frustrations on people/things that peeved you off during the week and thank them in a very sarcastic way, for being who or what they are/doing what they did. I know everyone can use some free therapy, so go ahead and type yours out, grab my button from my sidebar, and then link up with me so that we can all share in each other's therapy.

So here it goes...

THANK YOU VERY MUCH - TO the woman that flipped me the finger yesterday while going downthe road... when i was doing nothing but driving.. she was the one going 10 miles an hour on a 25 mph and I didnt even honk at you

THANK YOU VERY MUCH - TO The weather why must you get cold again... even if youll be warm by this afternoon... wakin up to the cold I was done with weeks ago...

THANK YOU VERY MUCH - to the freakin pollen (though spring is my fav)... my eyes are so swollen and hurt so bad... i want to claw them out...

THANK YOU VERY MUCH - state of texas for your standardized TAKS test... that made me sit in a class for hours "watching" kids take your test

Your turn!!! Got to love TYVM Thursdays!!!

Pour Your Heart Out --- my daddy!!

2010-04-07T09:25:00.000-07:00

It's that time of the week again.... over at SHells

Daddy and Me @ the SUGAR BOWL... GO GATORS

and my story today comes from something kinda personal... but still
it's bout MY DADDy... and me a little bit...

So my daddy had raised me (and my brother) from the time my bio mom left... it was just me, daddy, and bro, for bout three years.. then my MOM (stepmom) came into the picture... But anyways point being my daddy is a diabetic, and he takes insulin and has since he was young. I can remember being little and his sugar gettin low, and him having seizures and stuff.. and it was scary... But sometimes being an adult and seeing it to me SCARES me even more. My daddy and I had a lot of differences as i was growing up... but he was still always there for me. Monday, this week, his sugar got really low, and my sister whom is 12 called me and told me he wouldn't eat or drink anything... I yelled at my kids to get in the car and hauled it to my parents house. NOw walkin in and seeing my mom, grandma, and aunt all there was a lil bit of relief.. but not so much when i walk over and my dad is on the couch still not eating/drinkin and repeating the number 24 (that was his sugar level).... then when asked who is standing there .. he didn't know who I was. Now after shoving, dp, grape juice, three musketeers etc in him, we finally get his sugar up enoughthat he is more coherent. with out us having to call 911. Everytime this happens I get even a more sicker feeling in my stomach... I love my daddy so much. And just here recently we have become SOOO MUCH closer.. NEW YEARS day i took him with me, hubby, and a friend to the SUGAR BOWL.. to see his fav team the GATORS... it was so nice to get to do something with him, without my mom, and lil sister. But after monday's episode, my heart has been heavy... I know he is ok.. I just get so scared sometimes... he is and has been the one CONSTANT in my life.. through all the things I have been through. So this is just to say I LOVE MY DADDY SO MUCH!!!!

INSANITY OF MIDDLE SCHOOLERS

2010-04-06T10:05:00.000-07:00

Everyday for the last five years (including this year) I have been coming to work to teach middle school kids. Grades 6-8. And I know they have left me with so many thoughts of disgust at times, that I could write a book. As smart as some of them are, they act like they are still in 1st grade. They have such opportunities that are even different from when I was in middle school, that they take for granted or don't take advantage of. They do the most stupid things... things that even the boys I always thought were dumb don't match up too. Some of the girls...are only thinking bout the hottest boy and what the plans may or may not be for the weekend. They talk so loudly that I know WWWWAAAAYYY tooo much bout some of my students, because they think they are whispering and they are not. Not to sound like the teacher who doesn't like her job.. cuz Teaching is the only thing I wanted to be growing up. And it is so rewarding at times. Knowing I have touched at least one life and they will remember that later. I have a couple of teachers that touched my heart in school, that I have always aspired to be like.. my high school Journalism/English teacher Mrs. Regina Cowles (whom I miss dearly she has been with our Lord above since the year I graduated)... she was a phenomenal teacher and friend. My 4th grade teacher Mr. Trevey always made school so much fun. In middle school I had the best math teacher, Mrs. Burrell... I hated Math but Loved her class. So if I can possible touch a kid's life like these did then I know I'm where I am meant to be. My first year teaching was a nightmare, but I learned so much and this year that class graduates in May and I can't wait to go see them. But back to what I was saying some days coming to work to deal with certain Middle Schoolers is hard.. they say things and have not much respect for adults, till you tell them your going to call their parents, and talk about some of them being LAZY.. it peeves me to see such a smart kid not turn in their work for three weeks. Ok it's just been one of those days.. and as much as I love my middle school students some days I want to just go home to my little ones or find a new career. :)
SO to any other teachers out there... I know how hard you work each day... And am thankful your on my team of educating our future generations!

blog for a giveaway :)

2010-04-05T10:06:00.000-07:00

So there is this giveaway with a fantastic sad but sweet story over at

http://ethertonphotography.blogspot.com/

and the Love Struck Metals are amazing.. and have decided to give a reader a personalized piece.Go check em out and become her follower. :)

It's awesome!

2010-04-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

My new found buddy Ian over @ The Daily Dose of Reality hosts this fun little meme and I think EVERYONE should jump on this bandwagon. With that being said, the following are Ian's questions and my answers! (If you want to be cool, you'll click on Ian's Monday Minute logo above and join us!)

What's wrong with fake breasts?
Nothing what so ever... If you want em... get em... if you need em... get em... If your happy with yours great! If you don't need em cuz you got to much already... try to find a friend that wants some of it lol.. and beg a dr to share.. wish that was possible.. I have a friend that wants to get rid of some of hers lol

List your latest run-in with the Carnival of Idiocy.
hmmm does the ex husbands idiocy count... but I wont go there right now

Name one thing you'd like to tell your ten year ago self.
Have fun... Love yourself.. and watch out for the loser that is sure to break your heart into a million pieces.

What's your favorite word that's not in the dictionary?
freakatic.... freak and fanatic over things... Im a freakatic when it comes to my photography! everyone always expects me to have my camaera!

Why do fools fall in love?
it is a requirement to make it through lifes journey with your heart having been broken and in love at least a handful of times.

2010-04-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

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SOUNDS fun ...
Welcome to this week’s edition of Aloha Friday.

In Hawaii, Aloha Friday is the day that we take it easy and look forward to the weekend. So I thought that on Fridays I would take it easy on posting, too. Therefore, I’ll ask a simple question for you to answer. Nothing that requires a lengthy response.

If you’d like to participate, just post your own question on your blog and leave your link below. Don’t forget to visit the other participants! It’s a great way to make new bloggy friends!

My question is
WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP?

Its that time again!!!

2010-04-02T07:32:00.000-07:00

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BLINDED BY THE LOVE!!!

2010-04-01T12:59:00.000-07:00

BLINDED

Blinded by the love I have
for not just my family but my friends
I try to see the good in all
even when it's my tears that fall
I never thought it would hurt so much
but I'm sorry is not enough.
I've tried so hard to forget
but the words still linger in my ears
But Blinded by the love I have
so much for not just my Family but my FRIENDS till the END.

Blinded by the love I have
for not just my husband and my kids
so much my heart is Full
memories made to be pulled
at later dates when I am old
and my kids have kids of their own.
Old and gray I'll still be Blinded by the love I have
For my husband, whom is my best friend
for my kids, that are my world
and yes still all my family and my friends.

Thinking Bout it Thursday

2010-04-01T08:24:00.001-07:00

So Yesterday in my Pour my Heart out post I talked bout being in the middle of two friends... and without putting a lot of detail for the world to read I posted what I could. Well last night I got a text saying "We NEED to talk" so I go to the Girl frinds house and she then lays out the ENTIRE story... as I am crying cuz I am SO HURT by what I am being told... I begin to wonder why would two people do this to me? They say they love me and care about me, what did I do so wrong for this to take place. I have been lied to for two years by my friends... so I am really hurt... and then to top it all off I still have to get the other side of the story from the Guy friend... and hope He is honest and upfront or the whole Losing a friend thing I talked about will for sure happen.. :(

So say a lil prayer for me... as I try to get through all of that this afternoon.

RELAY FOR LIFE -

2010-04-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

So I am a teacher at a middle school where this year we lost two teachers to cancer. One woman in October of 09 and a man this march. They were phenomonal teachers that touched so many students lives along with many other teachers, family, and friends. We are participating in Relay For Life in memory of them. Any donations would be great if you feel up to it! :)

http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY10National?px=15170962&pg=personal&fr_id=24198

2010-03-31T07:52:00.000-07:00

love having an outlet to Pour my heart out... I have a two part one today!

so just sometimes i feel my friends in order to "PROTECT" me really Hurt me instead. I have had some issues this week... I know I can be too trusting sometimes it is one of my downfalls. I love my friends and trust them. I hate being in the middle of something that I don't fully understand all the details too... AM I THE ONLY ONE THIS HAPPENS TOO? But Iknow me and if any of my friends were being to naive to see something I'd at least say something to them and then they can still make their own choice. I don't want to lose any of my friendships.. especially this one in particular.. we have been best friends for six years our children are all the same age and are best freinds. But on the same now the other friend I don't want to lose either cuz they have done nothing to me. SO what do I do? How am I suppose to feel?
When confronted bout things they both have their own versions... whom do I believe? It really ate at me all day yesterday. I want to beleive that if I Needed either of the two people concerned here they would be there for me... and I do believe it. I just sometimes wonder about the REALITY of some friendships. I have a lot of really close friends, some I talk to daily some I barely talk to monthly but I know they would be there if NEEDED anything from them. So anyways just needed to vent a lil. thanks for reading. :)

On a happier note though...
Saturday will make six months of being married to my best friend, Danny! He has been so amazing and supportive through a lot of things since we have been together. I'm lucky and can't wait to see what our LONG future holds.