Wednesday, March 31, 2010
love having an outlet to Pour my heart out... I have a two part one today!
so just sometimes i feel my friends in order to "PROTECT" me really Hurt me instead. I have had some issues this week... I know I can be too trusting sometimes it is one of my downfalls. I love my friends and trust them. I hate being in the middle of something that I don't fully understand all the details too... AM I THE ONLY ONE THIS HAPPENS TOO? But Iknow me and if any of my friends were being to naive to see something I'd at least say something to them and then they can still make their own choice. I don't want to lose any of my friendships.. especially this one in particular.. we have been best friends for six years our children are all the same age and are best freinds. But on the same now the other friend I don't want to lose either cuz they have done nothing to me. SO what do I do? How am I suppose to feel?
When confronted bout things they both have their own versions... whom do I believe? It really ate at me all day yesterday. I want to beleive that if I Needed either of the two people concerned here they would be there for me... and I do believe it. I just sometimes wonder about the REALITY of some friendships. I have a lot of really close friends, some I talk to daily some I barely talk to monthly but I know they would be there if NEEDED anything from them. So anyways just needed to vent a lil. thanks for reading. :)
On a happier note though...
Saturday will make six months of being married to my best friend, Danny! He has been so amazing and supportive through a lot of things since we have been together. I'm lucky and can't wait to see what our LONG future holds.