Pour Your Heart Out.. week one for me

Here are the Rules:

Write a post from the heart.
Something that has been weighing on you.
Something you feel passionately about.
Something you've been wanting to talk about.
A cause, a memory, a belief, a world view.

Anything.



Upon reading others this seemed to fit... and boy can I pour it out.

So monday my children and I witnessed our puppy get ran over, she was an early Christmas present taht was given to them at Thanksgiving last year. So as we brought her to the vet, my oldest twin held her puppy all the way there (she is the one that is attached to animals and they her)... I cried the whole time. So then yesterday the vet calls and gives the news.. broken pelvis broken femur... not doing good. Now the worse part of all is she could be saved but at a cost that we can not come close to afford right now with me not having a permenant job and being unsure of what is going to happenk, already stressing bout paying our bills... so we had to put our puppy to sleep yesterday. This is the second puppy Ive had in like 7 years that something bad has happened to. Beginning to feel like Im not meant to have a dog. So my poor children are devestated mainly the oldest twin more than the other two, Ive cried for two days... but I know it is going to be ok. But emotionally and mentally Im going through so many other things lately this was just like the tip of the iceburg. So hopefully the rest of my week gets better. :) Thanks for listening.