So saturday night about 11pm BM calls to wish me Happy Mother's Day, I thought oh interesting, ok.. "happy mothers day to you to."... she then tells me that she loves me, and is proud of me, etc.. ok so here we are thinking this is not a bad convo at all.. actually I was feeling like maybe she does care a lil bit bout me and my kids etc... (though she has seen my 3 like maybe ummmm 10 times in 8yrs.. and that is usually when i run into her in HEB or Walmart)... but of course she couldn't leave the convo at Happy Mother's day.. I'm proud of you etc.. it had to go WAY DOWN HILL. She is the one that LEFT and No matterwhat the circumstances of her leaving she left.. and though I'm an adult now.. in my mind she still LEFT. ... but to leave out all the years and years worth of stories I'll pin point a few things...
- she wasnt at ANY school function growing up.. academic/ extra curricular
- she wasnt at wedding shower... my first wedding...my twins baby shower.. my twins being born... my son being born... or even my second wedding 7 months ago
- SHE WAS INVITED TO ALL OF THE ABOVE
- she can't stand to be around my dad/mom my grandparents.. so instead she chooses not to be part of my life yet tries to put the blame on me (her daughter) seriously what the hell
So everytime I consider even attempting a relationship with her.. she does something stupid ...
Yesterday I put on facebook.as my status.. Going to eat with the parents (wanted to put mom/dad but decided to be nice and just put parents), grandparents, aunt/uncle.. Had a great day even if it wasnt what I wanted it to be... but my family made it GREAT.
The BM then goes and puts on my facebook... Never satisfied what do u expect from a SPOILED brat... I love u tab but its true.
Seriously that is what she put... are you kidding me...
this woman does NOT even know me... does not know much about me cept what she reads on my stupid facebook... she couldnt probably tell you my fav color, my fav food,my fav movie... she has no idea what i like to do or what hurts me the most. yet she wants to call me a SPOILED brat... (now even if i am spoiled at times.. she should be able to go to sleep each night so peacefully knowing she did not make me that way lol).
When I read her little comment, I was SO MAD... So I know this.. no matter what her excuses and where she wants to put her BLAME.. which she still takes NO Blame for her not being in my life... she blames me, my dad, my mom, my grandparents.. but doesnt take any her for herself.. at 47 years old she is still putting fault everywhere else.
She is suppose to be the MOTHER and I'm suppose to be the kid.. no matter the age.. but anyways...
I know who raised me and who was there for me and it was not her.. it was my DADDY (whom i've posted about ) and then my mom that has loved me since I was 8 (whom i posted about last week). I LOVE THEM... and as much as at times it breaks my heart to not have a relationship with the BM.. most days my life is MUCH better without her DRAMA!
Thanks for reading everyone.. I just needed to get some stuff out at least a little of it.